In the past eighteen years of my life, I have experienced loss, grieves, joy, and love. I have experienced love from my parents, siblings, distant families, and friends. But one thing that is always missing is love, a love that makes you feel butterflies and makes you feel like time is endless. I know I am young and I am not ready but no matter how much I avoid it, I know that deep inside my soul, I also want to feel that type of love.
I envy my friends. Every time I see them, I envy how they are willing to give and trust their partners because for me I feel like I won't be able to do that. I feel like my heart can't handle the burden, happiness, and pain all at once. I don't think I can handle losing someone I love and experiencing all those new emotions that come with it. I will not like the way it will make me feel. I will not like how it will change my personality. It is very dangerous no matter how much I want to try. I don't think I'll be able to handle it. So no matter what happens, I, Katrina Lee, have decided to avoid being with someone. I will avoid love.
As Claire aims to leave her oppressive stepfamily behind, she befriends Zion. Will he be her ticket to freedom or a distraction in achieving her dreams?
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Claire Olsen has had a crush on Zion Petrakis since the first time she laid eyes on him, but he never noticed, instead only having eyes on the school's it girl, Maddie Jennings. Knowing she couldn't compete with Maddie, Claire hid her feelings for Zion, satisfied with admiring him from afar. However, when a series of events led Claire closer to Zion, her feelings for him grew from infatuation to love. And despite fighting hard to keep her feelings contained by distancing herself from Zion, he was determined to show her that he's earned a spot in her life.
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