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best drinking drugs friend late night party teenage thoughts

11/23/2014-

I hadn't seen you in months.

Months! Can you believe it's been that long?

From everyday together, for years, to never at all?

God knows if I even remember the night properly.  I can't even count how many substances were in my system. 

I wasn't expecting you.  You weren't supposed to be there. Hell, you were never supposed to be anywhere you showed up to.

I couldn't see straight, but that's okay.  I was feeling on cloud nine!  Just like you do!  Can't you see how much I've changed?

You hugged me, an embrace so strong it could have snapped me in half.  A thousand words were said in those thirty seconds.

But nobody knows what those words are.  Not even us.

I miss you?  Who are you?  Why are you here?  What are you on?  Do you remember me?  You got tall?

"I missed you! How have you been?"  Don't.  I wasn't sober, but not that far gone.

"You too."  What are you doing here?

I hadn't prepared myself!  I wasn't expecting you here!  I haven't thought about you in months!

It was scary to realize how quickly things had changed.

Because, two years ago, I would never have even been at that party.  I knew better two years ago, would never have found it enticing.

But then again, four years ago, you never would have been at that party either.All Rights Reserved

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