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Revisiting Myself

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I used to write all the time here about everyday life, and it was a way for my younger self to let go of a lot of things that were happening at the time. I'm now 18, and hadn't remembered this site for about 5 years. I have recently begun dealing with anxiety and confusion surrounding my future and my current environment, so i decided to revisit this in hopes of letting go of some things here. I'm open to advice, and would love to hear your own stories. 
Much love, 
Ellie.All Rights Reserved

18 18plus advice awkward confusion crisis freedom future help helpimbadatthis is laugh life living love mylife new newbeginnings newstory struggles whyamidoingthis youngadult

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