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if only you knew what went on in my mind

Reads 62
Votes 4
Parts 7
Time 24m

Reads 62
Votes 4
Parts 7
Time 24m

inspired by in my mind by lyn lapid. 
tw: self harm, ed, anxiety/panic attack, bad mental health, and more


hyunjin ff
I haven't decided if I want a ship yet. but I know this ain't gonna be no y/n story. I'm over those.

can you tell I've been living off of TikTok recently?



start - 10/09/2021

"if only you knew what went on in my mind. you'd never want to see me ever again. so I won't. no I won't open up. I can't afford to lose anyone. not again."


"please don't leave me"

"never"


"never say never. it never works."


"promises were meant for me to make. and you to break and leave me disappointed."All Rights Reserved

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