The pain

I didn't know what to feel,it felt like I lost you but I still had you . Losing you want such a big problem but it did hurt. And about these people , I am not even attached to them but looking at their condition made me cry , that they were in so much pain , and that pain drove them insane .
It feels like everything ended,but in reality it didn't . But little that depression killed me bad. I cried , shouting to the world , screaming the names of people I hate,throwing everything in my way , for once I just wanted someone to hold me close and say I know where you are , and I know it hurts, and I want that person to hold me so tight that I can barely breathe , and all I would want to do is just shout and cry.
It may sound cliche thing to some, but they don't know that every bit of pain I go through , it was like you were right in front of me and all I could do was nothing .
That pain hurted so much that I could feel it in my chest , you would never know the pain of being si