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Em andamento, Primeira publicação em out 14, 2021
People will always critize you about your flaws your imperctions and that's natural.... to them but not to me. 

They didn't know that those harsh words that coming out to their mouth  is like a dagger they throwing at my heart..... It's hurts a lot!! 

They are completely destroying me. 

That's when I start questioning myself, why I'm like this? Why I'm not good enough? Many questions popping in my head. 

All I can do is to feel sorry for being like this, for being just like this, for being not good enough, for being useless, for being burden and all. Sorry for being me.

But I realized that life is not like that, i should not listen to what they say and let them control me just to be acceptable by them. 

Because at the end of the day it's just me that I can lean on. When everyone turn their backs on me.
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What we have is just now. As long as she loves me. As long as she wants to be with me. As long as there is 'we'. I love her! But the rainbow is not just a blend of vibrant and bright colors. It doesn't even stay for a long period of time-- just enough for us to see and in a fleet of time is gone, leaving us wondering if it's real. A rainbow doesn't have black and white. It wasn't just like that. Same as love. Same as us. There were times that i want to give her up. Not because my love did fade, rather, my love is too much. Too much that letting her go is the only option left for her to choose me without hesitation, without guilt, freed of lies. I want her to grow, to weigh things as it is. I want her to make me feel that being with me is her choice. I want her to realize that i am hers and that she have to surrender herself to me as well. I want her to love me because that is the way she feels and not because it was the safest way. Being with her is paradise. It was a mixture of colored pastel. It was too vibrant to explain. But at a sudden twist of downs and ups, we are shaking. Loving her has become my weakness. The weakening thought of losing her when I fuck up is too much to run me insane. I'm overreacting perhaps. But being with her, means walking in a narrow-road of heaven. There's no security, no assurance. One wrong move, and I'll be slipping away. Just in the never ending pain of darkness, of solitude, of self-struggle. Loving her has become my addiction. I couldn't get enough of it. But so they say, what's too much can cause harm. Maybe I'm loving her too much that she finds it hard to breathe when i'm around. But yes, it is just a wishful thinking; things that I'll surely not going to say to her because i will never ever earn the courage to say so. We are just nothing but a 'fateful coincidence.'
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You can never be contented on what you have. It's human's nature already. Wealth. Beauty. Fame. Intelligence. I literally have everything. Except a family and their forgiveness. A friend. But none of that matters now. It was my fault why I lost them all. It was very painful and I still live with it every single day for 10 long years. Until I met him. And it became even more unbearable and excruciating so I ask myself .. "Until when do I have to face my own karma?"