I FEEL USED

I am Leilani ,a teenager who kills herself because of depression and anxiety and feeling like she was never good enough. People used me and all my life i felt like a pawn inside someone else's game. I love but never get loved but there is one person who is there for me(OR AT LEAST WAS) . The only question is " is he for real, does he really love me. I dont know but the truth is i dont care anymore. I was fragile and weak, blinded by society and its principles. I never wanted attention but getting it then getting robbed of it infuriated me. I hated being ignored because they thought i was",fine" Emotional pain really hurt physically, my heart would ache and my stomach would turn. My mind was the devil inside me which eventually drove me astray. I killed myself slowly but surely until it was permanently. The people lost in time. I wrote this as a reminder to those i left on earth, at first it was a diary but now, today, it is finally a book of my life. THE LIFE OF LEILANI GEORGE.