Outside Looking In

I was in love with Nate, a boy who can't seem to commit to me. All he did is hurt me and I welcome the pain as long as at the end of it all, he'd still choose me. Was something wrong with me back then? I don't know. Maybe. All I knew then was that I'd still love him, I'd still choose him over everything else, even if the pain is too much because I know then he was the only one who can stop the pain. No one else.

I was stupid then. I am stupid now.

Nothing changed. I am still that girl. I will always be that girl. I'll always be outside looking in. I'd never be inside someone else's heart. I'd always be outside watching as their lives be filled with happiness.

I know that now.