Lust where the Smokes of the Past Lies [BL/YAOI]

That's my Temporary Story Cover photo and i might change a better one in the future. And also, have fun with my first light novel.. haha

Edit: yay i found a better Story cover.. hahaha it looks great to be honest..

My updates are inconsistent because I'm not paid for it so please be patient.. thanks

Disclaimer: the story contains the Main character's POV and everything that the character he faced and their actions are all in his viewpoint. and there's no prologue, just synopsis.
Enjoy

Main Genre: BL/Yaoi
Sub Genre: Action, Suspense, Smut, Romance

Synopsis:

This child turned gay because he got raped when he was 5 year old.. He wanted help but said nothing to his grandparents though, because they're strict and scary, and he thought that he'll get punished by his grandparents for telling them about it.
He was straight though but he's uncertain now because of that trauma he had in the past
He tried to cope with the anxiety by copying other people like smoking when he turned 8 because he thought it's cool.. And was invited into gay clubs/bars when he turned 11 by his so called friends.. Fucked people, get fucked.. got hurt and the cycle went on and on to the point of which, he hated to be committed because he was used and just closed his heart to people.. he would fuck em but he won't be committed, having his own principle to be 'no strings attached' and 'fuck and dash'
To the point that he just find.. sex to be a past time, a hobby.. He's now 25 years old and is now finding his purpose in life to fill his meaningless existence.. he just doesn't know where and how..