She knows what she is doing is risky . She is very well aware of her impact on me yet , she doesn't pity the pathetic state of my heart. It's driving me insane of how painfully slow she attempts to kiss me, so evil. Alcohol never made me stumble in my high yet she can make me a drunk jerk. She knows how badly I want her . But, refusing all the limits of shame she is coming even closer. I can't hold myself back anymore . I am desperate and she is to be blamed for my condition.