When deep breathes don't help.
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Last published Mon, Dec 22, 2014
When deep breathes don't help. I wonder, why did I just try without thinking. When my eyes glaze over and I can't comprehend what the person in front of me is saying. When I've had too many stresses adding up in my head, it's time for my brain just to go numb and possibly dumb. When I try to think a thought and then it's forgotten.
And still these deep breathes sneak up on me, kinda embarrassing me, then again I think, I don't care what people think. When the stresses keep adding up. How much does a person take, how many deep breaths, before the breathing becomes normal again?
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