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BEFORE I DIE, I PRAY TO BE BORN | ✓

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Reads 15,484
Votes 1,591
Parts 55
Time 10h 6m

Mature

The real world skins you alive.

It's a hazard of growing up in rural Suffolk... or possibly, it's a hazard of growing up. Either way, the Dorian Andrade and Isaiah Matalon who run into each other at a party in Oxford have become equally disenchanted imitations of the boys who used to spend summers eating stolen apples on the riverbank.

A lot has changed in the six years since they saw each other. One thing is still the same: the longing for each other's company. But aren't the objects of our yearning so much easier to encounter in the imagination than when they're standing in front of us?



GENRE: literary fiction, queer romance
TROPES: second chance romance, friends to lovers, mutual pining
COMP TITLES: A Little Life, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous, Call Me By Your Name, basically Wolfstar Muggle AU
     

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There's A Boy in my Bed (BoyxBoy) by Youroffputting

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Stress Relief by Toasty_Tea913

High school, a teenager's hell, but it can also be a place where you start on a path you didn't even know you were on. After the incident he was in his freshman year causing him not only to be homeschooled, but gain some serious insecurities, Elijah Mulligan has decided to be brave and come back in person for his senior year. That is, after the new football coach of two years, his father, convinces him to meet some of the players he's been coaching. One in particular catches his eye, and despite swearing to himself he'd never fall for someone again, before he knows it the captain of the football team is coming over to study with him and sooner than he likes Elijah finds himself staring into his eyes more than just a friend should. Growing up, all he wanted was to be loved as much as he loved others. What with an emotionally and physically absent step mother and a distant father who doesn't realize his son isn't a straight-A making machine, Chase Lawrence has developed a bad habit of stressing way too much over school work and having a burning desperation for a distraction. That didn't tend to mix well with his current girlfriend of three months who he's never gone on a single date with because she always had an excuse. Then, all of a sudden the endless loop of exhaustion and disappointment breaks when Chase finds himself magnetically drawn towards his Coach's son, and looking at him a lot more than someone already in a relationship should. So, what happens when a boy still recovering from the trauma he gained his freshman year and a quarterback wanting a relationship where he can finally be himself, start to like each other? Well, hopefully, maybe, they can give each other some stress relief. *** Copyright status: [All rights reserved]

We Were Giants by PRAdams

Cade Swanson is a high school senior who has only one hope of leaving his awful life: art. On top of the stress of the school year, Cade has a lot to balance. His best friend ignores him every time she's in a relationship, his mom is working two jobs, he's raising his little brother, and he's trying to build a successful portfolio as an artist to try to win the state art show. The only stability in his life is his friend Isaiah. When Isaiah's mom helps Cade catch his first big break as an artist, he's swept away by success and can start to see the light at the end of the tunnel. As Cade's friendship with Isaiah starts to evolve, Isaiah complicates things by kissing him and rewriting the rules of their friendship. Before Cade even has a chance to consider his feelings, Isaiah's mother dismisses him as too low class to be part of Isaiah's life. And just when things can't seem to get anymore confusing, Cade's dad has decided to try to be a part of his life again for the first time in four years.

Bet We Could Make Some MORE (History Huh?) by wonderland_batgirl

Alex and Henry are newly engaged and planning their wedding as Alex's first Congressional election is coming up. While Henry is done with being in the spotlight, he's always knew that to love Alex, he'll have to continue to be. But as the wedding approaches, it eats at him as he realizes Alex and him want different lives. Alex, meanwhile is too wrapped up in politics to see how much Henry is suffering, and in his attempt to balance being everything to everyone, turns to vice. Will this be the thing that tears them apart? How can they both be happy if one of them has to sacrifice the life they have always desired? Follows book cannon (but not the bonus chapter exactly) and takes place 6 years after the end of the book. Chapters will alternate being told from Henry and Alex's POVs. *Was on hold for a few months (May-August 2024) during my graduation and moving but new posts weekly starting Monday, Sep. 30!! There will likely be 25 total. TRIGGER WARNINGS: mental health issues, drug and alcohol use, disordered eating, profanity, and (light) sexual content Note: Please consider the politics in this story to be a very fictional representation, and they do NOT truly represent US politics. Cover art @autiacorart on Etsy. All characters belong to Casey McQuiston. All writing is my own. Please do not share any part of this work without referencing me. Also posted on Ao3 (by me).

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There's A Boy in my Bed (BoyxBoy) cover

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Bet We Could Make Some MORE (History Huh?) cover

Your Picture On My Phone (The Scar Series - Book One) cover

The Vampire Prince's Toxic Consort (bxb) cover

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Signs From The Universe (bxb) cover

The Summer Daze cover

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There's A Boy in my Bed (BoyxBoy)

"We can't do this." I whisper as our lips re-connect, a tingling fire surging through my body as his hands ravage unexplored lands; my innocence dissipating away with every peck he trails down my neck. "I know we can't. That's why it's so exciting." He replies through kisses. His effortless charm intoxicates me; drowning me; hunting me; devouring me. "What if my brother finds out?" The perpetuated patter of the rain unable to subdue my groan as he digs his nails deeper into my skin. "Who cares." ********** Welcome to my story, where an innocent boy finds a not so innocent boy in his bed; where they do not so innocent things. - YOP