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BEFORE I DIE, I PRAY TO BE BORN | ✓

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Reads 15,146
Votes 1,585
Parts 55
Time 10h 6m

Mature

The real world skins you alive.

It's a hazard of growing up in rural Suffolk... or possibly, it's a hazard of growing up. Either way, the Dorian Andrade and Isaiah Matalon who run into each other at a party in Oxford have become equally disenchanted imitations of the boys who used to spend summers eating stolen apples on the riverbank.

A lot has changed in the six years since they saw each other. One thing is still the same: the longing for each other's company. But aren't the objects of our yearning so much easier to encounter in the imagination than when they're standing in front of us?



GENRE: literary fiction, queer romance
TROPES: second chance romance, friends to lovers, mutual pining
COMP TITLES: A Little Life, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous, Call Me By Your Name
     

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