She was desperately seeking happiness in others and instead found a bunch of heartbreak. Making memories with people who didn't deserve her heart and her love, but still, she misses those memories. She smiles and says "I'm fine." Truth is, she isn't fine. She misses the moments she found happiness. The moments where she felt acceptance. So she feels anger and betrayal, punching everything within the distance. I think deep down she is screaming for help but no one can hear her. A broken heart and a broken soul. Truly lost she is.