Ever since I was in middle school, I wanted a boyfriend. I saw the big, pretty ninth graders with a guy around their shoulder, and I grew more jealous everyday. And as my fifth grade self, I tried to get one. And boy did that not work out. Now, being the big pretty ninth grader I am , I have a crush.... His name is Jake. Hmm.... Jake and Hayley. How does that sound? I think it sounds pretty good. The bad part is, I'm not popular, and neither is Jake, but Sabrina, a popular girl, is in love with him. And being from the small New England island of Martha's Vineyard, everyone knows everything about everyone. Now comes the challenge of the century, winning him over.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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