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Thoughts

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Joshua Anderson, more commonly known as Josh, is a senior attending Lake Forest High School in Chicago. He's the captain of the school's defensive line, sporting the number 71 on the back  of his jersey. He's overall a happy kid. . . or so everyone thought. 
When Josh commits suicide, everyone is left in shock. His brother, girlfriend, and best friend are left in extreme grief, and his classmates feel as if they are missing a part of themselves. Ella White, his 14-year-old next door neighbor, starts questioning everything about her life. 
Through a series of diary-based entries and short snippets of stories, Ella explains what it feels like to lose a friend. Comforting other people while going through the same thing yourself can be hard, but Ella is determined to help everyone that feels the same way Josh did. Can Ella stay strong when the weight of other people's worries starts to pull her down?

This story is based off of true events but has fictional characters. This is the story about a boy at my school, who I have known since I was four. Ella is the character that represents me, but the story is based around Josh. 

Keep in mind that this story is based of off true events and that not everything that happens in the story is true. Some of it is altered, and some of it is straight from my life.All Rights Reserved

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