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Jester (MxM) ✔

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Reads 270,004
Votes 11,985
Parts 45
Time 4h 49m

sweetcaressesofmay

Mature

bl bxb bxblove depression drama gay gayaf gayfiction gaylove lgbt lgbt-themed lgbtfiction lgbtpride lgbtqia lgbtrights malexmale manxman mentaldisorder mxm ptsd texttospeech youngadult

Eli is the guy with the loudest laughter and the sunniest smile. What his friends don't know is that he wants to die and that it's all planned to the last detail. The day Eli meets Benjamin is supposed to be his last, but it seems like Benjamin isn't going to let him go so easily..

CW: suicide, depression, rape, PTSD, addiction

2021-2022

𝙅𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙨:
× Jester
× Miles Apart, sequel
× above all, spin-offAll Rights Reserved

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Teammates In Secret Playing Dirty by Official_Rxsy

Eli Tanaka doesn't have time for distractions. Focused, guarded, and brutally competitive, he's fighting for a future - on the field and beyond. The only thing getting in his way is Luca Moreno: loud, reckless, infuriatingly charming... and very, very off-limits. They play on the same soccer team. They have everything to lose. So when a late-night mistake turns into something they can't stop, Eli makes one rule - nobody can know. But keeping secrets gets dangerous. Especially when Luca starts looking at him like he means more than a hookup. Especially when the world - and the team - start watching. This is not a love story. Not yet. It's a game of obsession, touches that don't make it into stats, and the thrill of wanting something you're not supposed to have. ⸻ Told in first-person POV from Eli Tanaka ⚠️ This story contains spicy content, language, and emotional themes.

All Things Holy ✔️ by namesakens

❝I know you love God or whatever, but I want to do the most unholy things to you.❞ Small towns harbor two types of people: those that live and die within the confines of it, and those that get the hell out while they can. Hudson is one of the lucky few with the means to pack his bags and run as fast as he can once he graduates high school. Although he can't quite cut ties with his family and leave his past in the past, he can take advantage of a fresh start in the city that never sleeps: New York City. College is a chance for Hudson to find out who he really is--and who he wants to be. He's a good boy with a religious knack and a girlfriend back home who doesn't mind that he's saving himself for marriage. His deepest secret that he likes men is neither new nor surprising, more so downright despicable. Damnable, even. When he meets Zane, an eccentric friend of his roommate, his entire earth is turned on its axis and the life he thought he wanted vanishes. Zane opens his eyes to a world of freedom full of lust and sin. And for the love of all things holy, he likes it.

MY KIND OF CRAZY ✔️ by hudsonmillerr

Ian Becker, an innocent teenage boy, ends up in an all boys mental hospital after a life-ruining misunderstanding. He isn't like the rest of the boys there. He isn't crazy. He doesn't hear voices, get into ruthless fights or want to die. He doesn't belong with them. Does he? Start date: 5/2/20 End date: 5/30/20 Tags: #1 in boyxboy #1 in bl #1 in humor #1 in bxb #2 in mxm #3 in lgbt

Diaries Of The Damaged by Inn0centPervert

After a failed suicide attempt, seventeen-year-old Elio is put in a mental hospital. There he meets his new caretaker, Wes, a 20-year-old psychiatry student on an internship. The two of them form a strong bond as Wes helps Elio get back on his feet, getting closer than they should as time goes by. This is not only a story about love, but also about life struggles and self-acceptance. I hope you give it a try! :) ▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄ ⚠️Warning⚠️: This story contains smut, violence, self-harm, blood, drugs, mentions of child abuse, mentions of sexual assault, mentions of suicide, etc. If you feel like that kind of content is triggering or too much, maybe this story isn't for you.

Stay (M×M) ✔ by sweetcaressesofmay

You love your best friend, he doesn't love you back. He has met a girl, a pretty little thing, he's in love with her. He's your only friend, but he has new friends. They're toxic and no good for you, either of you. They treat you like sh*t, and when you get treated like sh*t often enough, you start to believe it's what you deserve. And before you know it, you're drowning. You're drowning in deep, cold water. William and Aydan have been inseparable for ten years, due to an arrangement William's wealthy dad made to make sure his asocial son has at least one friend. During those years William has secretly fallen in love with Aydan. Once Aydan starts going out with a girl named Claudia, William wants to keep his friend close even if it hurts. Soon things start to change between them and Aydan's first love has more dangerous consequences than anyone could have guessed. CW: violence, depression 2020 (original), 2021 (edited)

The Victorious [BxBxB] ✓ by mademithril_

James falls for a guy. Then another! He's torn between sweet Oliver and tragic Victor. He can't pick between them, but maybe he doesn't have to. His mind tells him no, but screw that; his heart craves them both. James needs to find a way to navigate this new type of relationship before he hurts the ones he loves most. Content Warnings: sexual abuse, drugs, depression

ILL LOVERS by amarinell

"𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙤 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙗𝙖𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙪𝙨." -/- Josiah Mere was mentally ill. He knew and understood that and he wanted to fix it. He wanted to be better and he also wanted a change so that was one of the reasons why he agreed to go on a two week trip from Los Angeles to San Francisco with sixteen other kids he never met, a trip planned by his therapist. He just didn't expect to find love in the midst of that. Elijah Tripley was depressed. It was obvious and apparent but regardless, he didn't want to stay like that so that's why he decided to do something out of his comfort zone and intended to go on a trip filled with people he didn't know and wouldn't necessarily want to know. But Josiah came into his life and uprooted that plan instantly, even if they did get on the wrong foot in the beginning. - this is ILL LOVERS and I hope you all enjoy <3 - (𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑬𝑺𝑻𝑶𝑵𝑬𝑺) #10 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒍 𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 #197 𝒊𝒏 𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒆𝒓 #84 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒑𝒚

Impress Me Not: The Handyman by Saturn_Passion

"Is there anything you can't fix?" they all watched the man ask on the screen. "His heart!" Will yelled, popping some more chocolate into his mouth. "You know they can't hear you, right?" Benny asked, watching his coworker in amusement. "Hey," he put a hand out. "If people can yell at the screen of guys throwing or kicking a ball around, I can yell at this." *** Nicholas Bennet is a man that doesn't like being tied down. As the states richest bachelor, he's used to getting whatever he wants, including all the women who's hearts he broke. It's easy to impress them when he's made out of money, and got looks to match. But what happens when there's someone who won't be impressed by him? Someone who looks at him as if he's just a normal person with an unexciting life? Someone who makes him want to impress him? What happens when it's a man? *** COMPLETED

US [manxman] by flawed-

BOOK THREE Ben Morris never meant to become the center of anything. He's used to orbiting - around friends, around drama, around people louder and brighter than him. Julian and Paul have always been that kind of gravity in his life: familiar, steady, a little chaotic. But this year feels different.  Closer. Charged. Lines blur, loyalties shift, and suddenly Ben is caught in a place he never expected to be: noticed.

Miles apart (M×M) ✔ by sweetcaressesofmay

𝙎𝙚𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙡 𝙩𝙤 𝙅𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧 Miles and Ash are a textbook example of the saying "opposites attract". Miles couldn't keep his mouth shut even if his life depended on it, Ash has never been much of a talker. To Miles smiling comes naturally, to Ash once in a blue moon. Miles has a fancy apartment, he drives an expensive car and he comes from an influential family. Ash is working on minimum wage, barely having money for rent and a sick mother whose treatments he's trying to cover. But even if they lack money, they have plenty of love. Miles' family has money to bathe in, but even his fairest efforts aren't enough to please his demanding dad. What can a sulky poor guy teach to an insecure rich guy about love and wealth? ⚠️ CW: body image issues, mental abuse, suicide, depression, PTSD, grief, loss of a loved one 2022 𝙅𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙨: × Jester × Miles Apart, sequel × above all, spin-off

So Where Does that Put Us (boy x boy) by LifeDeep

"When something terrible happens to someone, everyone feels sorry for you at first, they take your hand and cry fake tears and say how 'special' you are, how strong you are. But after a while they forget...Then they don't see a person anymore they just see this terrible thing and think you're terrible because of it...It's like a little switch that goes off in people's heads: one minute everyone is your friend and they care oh-so much, then, when things die down, they become terrified of you. You'd be surprised to see what fear can make someone do." Justin Ivanov has never led much of a normal life, but when his sister passes away, his entire world falls apart. Trapped in an abusive relationship and in a school where everyone is scared of him, Justin continues to deteriorate, pinning all his hope on his confused best friend, Ben Fulton. He struggles to keep his family together without them finding out the hidden secret of his sexuality. But the more he fails, the closer he gets to losing himself forever. Ben Fulton doesn't understand what depression is. He doesn't understand why people have it or how to fix it. But when the sudden death of his best friend's sister leaves him feeling empty, he comes too close to comfort with just what depression can make someone do. Trying to sort out his own emotions, sexuality, and future out, Ben also has to balance trying to save Justin. But the more he tries, the more his feelings grow for his best friend, and the closer Justin gets to destroying himself.

No Need to Sleep Living in a Dream (B×B) ✔ by sweetcaressesofmay

Evan isn't keen on the idea of switching schools in his last year of high school, until uncovering his classmate's secret gives him a reason to stick around. Junior, who just wants to get through his last year in town in one piece, isn't happy about Evan finding out said secret. Dario is clever, but his compulsions and insomnia are getting on the way. It doesn't help that he is hopelessly falling for an infamous heartbreaker. Beau was supposed to be done with love and only be after hook ups, but things get complicated when he finds himself unable to get Dario off his mind. If only he had realized how damaging his impulsive behavior might be for someone like Dario. 𝘍𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘶𝘺𝘴. 𝘓𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘪𝘨𝘩 𝘴𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘭. 𝘖𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱. 𝗧𝗪: domestic violence, bullying, traumas, mentions of rape, panic attacks, PTSD, swearing, drugs, car accident Original story is from 2020-2021, but it's been edited (HEAVILY) 2022-2023. I've changed some things that went too far in the original version.

Bruises in blooms (B×B) by kalon_04

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Teammates In Secret Playing Dirty cover

All Things Holy ✔️ cover

MY KIND OF CRAZY ✔️ cover

Diaries Of The Damaged cover

Stay (M×M) ✔ cover

The Victorious [BxBxB] ✓ cover

ILL LOVERS cover

Impress Me Not: The Handyman cover

US [manxman] cover

Miles apart (M×M) ✔ cover

So Where Does that Put Us (boy x boy) cover

No Need to Sleep Living in a Dream (B×B) ✔ cover

Bruises in blooms (B×B) cover

Killing Samuel and Moving On cover

Bound by Fate cover

Out of reasons (M×M) ✔ cover

with the sun cover

We're Okay cover

Kiss, Marry, Kill cover

BELIEVE {BxB} cover

Teammates In Secret Playing Dirty

Eli Tanaka doesn't have time for distractions. Focused, guarded, and brutally competitive, he's fighting for a future - on the field and beyond. The only thing getting in his way is Luca Moreno: loud, reckless, infuriatingly charming... and very, very off-limits. They play on the same soccer team. They have everything to lose. So when a late-night mistake turns into something they can't stop, Eli makes one rule - nobody can know. But keeping secrets gets dangerous. Especially when Luca starts looking at him like he means more than a hookup. Especially when the world - and the team - start watching. This is not a love story. Not yet. It's a game of obsession, touches that don't make it into stats, and the thrill of wanting something you're not supposed to have. ⸻ Told in first-person POV from Eli Tanaka ⚠️ This story contains spicy content, language, and emotional themes.