Remember Maine

Who were you when your first heartbreak was formed. When you finally realized why so many people would listen to breakup albums with lyrics that haunt and hurt. You sit there as your body shakes and trembles. As people come by you in passing and you aren't even sure if they can see you. Or if they would want to. If you were them, you wouldn't want to see you.

It was October when mine happened. A Wednesday when I sat on the phone reading the same words over and over again that sat on my tiny screen. "I don't see us having a future together. I wanted things to end when you were here. But now that we are back to being long distance, I know I can imagine my life without you in it." I sat up and skimmed the words once, then twice. Finally reading it a third time as I tried to make sense of it. I didn't have a response as I blocked his number. Checking social media as I saw his name popping up with "user not available."