The darkness in the mind
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Last published Thu, Nov 4, 2021
!DISCLAIMER! This is not based on real events, it is an AU, and a vent. Okay, you got it? Good. 18+ content warning.
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Lillith is struggling, it's easy to say that. She has depression, anxiety, Eisoptrophobia and lethal bacteria infiltrating her system. Yeah, see what I mean? Luckily she has her friends for support, hopefully that'll be enough to stop the voices in her head from convincing her that she really IS worthless, and that she should just end it all...
Right?
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She has only really ever opened up to one person. Just one, her best friend, Lucid. A trans man that has been there no matter what happened, the only other person who was there for her like that was her boyfriend, Shadow. He stuck around since they were both eleven, pretty impressive, huh? Anyways, Lillith can always count on her friends, but things are spiraling out of control and now they have become the ONLY thing she can count on. Other than them, she doesn't trust anyone, least of all herself.
P.S: Lillith and I both suffer from the same things, except for the doge bites, those didn't happen. Don't worry, I'll get over it.
P.S.S: All of the characters in this are real people, I actually know them, I DID NOT use their real names, however and I have permission from all of them.
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