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Toxic

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Parts 96
Time 23h 50m

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Suffocated. Manipulated. Abused. 

☣️ ~ Toxic ~ ☣️

That's the easiest way to sum up what you're about to read. Though I assure you it was no easy thing to put all of this down on paper. It was the longest three months of my life and it was hell. My wife said I needed to get this out because it was eating me up. I have nightmares about it and panic attacks. So here's my journal about what it was like to be in a relationship with my ex.

~ Zach Anderson


ALL CHARACTERS OWNED BY Michaela ©

Original Work: Est. 12/2021

Note: Work is Undergoing Editing 📝

*The methods used in this book to cope with trauma, dissociation & PTSD are not demonstrative in any official capacity. Some are based on personal experience but you should always talk to a professional.All Rights Reserved

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