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The mind of a manipulated teenage boy

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New caption(2023-): This is an old diary i kept, to talk about my toxic friendship with a girl i thought liked, that manipulated me. It shows my growth, maturing and struggles over the years. I want to share my experiences as a flaud human being, trying to help others to understand their own lifes and emotions. I will try to keep this going, as a new person, with new struggles (will contain spelling mistakes, that i might work out over time)

Old caption (2021-2022):alright. I'm writing this for myself. Idk why. Usually I hate writing. Especially writing down my problems doesn't usually work for me. But there is so much stuff in my head that I just have to write it down for once, so my own twisted fucking mind doesn't mix it all up again. I will not pay any attention to spelling mistakes or such.All Rights Reserved

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Playgirl's Addiction by Onyx_Winter

"How could you! I trusted you! You promised you would stop this!" "Well that was your own fucking mistake wasn't it? I told you from the start that this was why I didn't want to date you!" "What the fuck happened to you? You're not at all the same person I met and originally fell for." "Yeah, your right this is who I am now! I'm not that little broken helpless girl you met on the streets years ago Aaron! I warned you from the start but just like him you wanted to actually believe that would all change over night!" "Just tell me one thing.. was any of it real like how my love for you was real?" This content is for ages 18+ please ask a parent before proceeding to read if under 18. I will not be at fault for anyone losing innocence or reading something they shouldn't. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK *Purchase full book off of Amazon.* Started: July 30th, 2021 Finished: June 8th, 2022

Mother Knows Best by SavanaPope

You know how you trauma-dump on your friends and they say, "Omg, that's insane, you should write a book about it!" Well, more people have made that remark to my mother as she exaggerates all her stories, so I took the liberty of taking that advice for myself. I am a writer, after all, and I tend to write out my feelings and trauma to work through it on my own, just to delete it later. But why not make some of those memories that haunt me so much into story form? It's definitely more entertaining. So, you'll find my entire life story, or at least what I remember, here in this book on Wattpad. Each chapter is a real event that occurred in my life, mostly involving my emotionally abusive mother, nearly absent and aggressive father, my runaway older sister, and even a little boy we fostered for a moment. If you're interested or possibly are going through something similar, please read and know that there is hope. I made it out and I am on my healing journey, it is possible.

It's Okay to Use Your Big Girl Voice by Beautiful_Slugger

Inside you will find a mixture of both, extremely RAW and refreshingly HEALING accounts of my personal war with my past. Unfortunately, Childhood sexual abuse is far too common, and many of share similar experiences. Looking back, what I could have used more than anything was someone to tell me "You're not alone, there is a lightness through the darkness, you can heal from this and most importantly don't EVER stop telling your story to make others comfortable". I've learned that silence is the best weapon for a predator, and I for one, have never been really good at doing what I'm told. I don't intend on starting now. I wear my scar as reminder that I hold the power in my own story, it is mine to tell and I won't make myself sick keeping quiet because my truths are hard to swallow, other people's comfort is not my problem. My Goal is rather simple, to let the readers know, they too are not alone. If you are a survivor, even if you still feel like a victim, this is my personal message to you. "You are strong, and it wasn't your fault. Tell someone... tell anyone...tell everyone... We shift from victims to survivors when we speak up and tell our stories. There's nothing wrong with you, and the light will shine again. The longer you sit in silence the more power your abuser still holds over you, wipe your face warrior, because there's a lion right inside of you, DONT EVER GIVE UP!" *This story is FULL of TRIGGERS, please be careful reading if triggers are hard for you, your mental health matters* *I own all the Rights to all parts of this book*

Catastrophically Carla (Lesbian Story) by xpaaulettex

Ages 14+ (lesbian concepts and some profanity) This is not your everyday love story, okay? It's not a chick flick either. The events and themes within my pages have meaning, depth, truth-and most of all, reality. You are about to be taken on an adventure about a girl who's life is not like everybody else's. I look like a normal teen girl, I mean, I have hair and two eyes and two hands and feet like everybody else, but I couldn't feel more different. I have two moms, yes. Let's just get that out there before you start reading and close my diary like everyone in my life has shut me out of theirs. All I want is a normal life with normal friends who don't judge me because of my home situation. I don't even remember the last time I went on a sleepover or called somebody my age. I don't mean to be a downer, because it does get better. Life gets better. Struggles are only temporary, I know that now. And by my last words reach your eyes, I've come a long way, and have grown to see potential in myself. I'm sharing this with you because I want to make a difference. I know now that I'm not the only one in the world that feels alone. I've been there, done that, and there's more loneliness to come, but for now, I feel more prepared for it. I know how it feels to sit by yourself at lunch every day and how it feels to watch others go to prom with dates and feel like shit because you don't think you'd even have any friends to go with. Please ready my diary. I am much older now, and much more wiser, and I can't wait for you to realize the potential in yourself, too.

Maybe by IronyDreams

An internal voice whispered, "Call him." But I chose not to. I dismissed it once more, saying, "He never liked me anyway." Yet the dilemma lingered. "But maybe he does. The way he looks at you... it's different." Out of nowhere, he glanced my way. My heartbeat quickened, sending shivers down my spine. I averted my gaze, pretending to look around. "Has he noticed me? No, wait-oh my god." --- After switching high schools, Nina discovered a new way of life. She fell in love, made wonderful friends, and everything seemed perfect. But Ethan-a popular boy who never focused on anyone but her-was the object of her hatred. He was always there, always keeping her safe. He used to annoy her endlessly. She hated him deeply. Until she didn't. For a while, she was content with her high school experience. That is, until something mysterious turned her world upside down. Forced to move to a new city, Nina had to cut ties with everyone she once knew. Eight years later, fate brings her face-to-face with him again. "Ethan..." He's the key to everything-the truths she never knew. When she was lost in the dark, he always held the light. But now, things are different. She despises him. He's colder than ever. Or perhaps she fears him. Fears that he'll leave her again. Will their lives ever return to normal after everything they've endured? "Maybe?" "Maybe yes. Maybe no?" --- Started: 8 November 2021 Ended: 19 December 2022 Rewritten: December 2024 --- ### Rankings Goals So Far: #1 Adolescente #1 given up #1 blinddates #1 pretend #10 twistedromance #50 high school romance --- ### Notice: This is my first published story, and it contains numerous grammatical errors and bad editing. If you're interested in the storyline, please don't judge me too harshly based on this book. Better stories are on the way-I'm still learning and improving every day. Enjoy! ✨

The Story Of Us *BWWM* (EDITING) by ImagineBlackBlues

A/N I am currently editing and rewiring this a little because their are some grammar mistakes and parts of the story that can be explained and written better. I wrote this a long time ago, when I just started writing and exploring different writing styles. I'm a little more experienced now and feel I can do this story justice now. So anyway, please check it out and support your girl💜 Thank you for even considering my story & I hope you enjoy it💜 *This story was started in November of 2015 and was finished March of 2016. ▪️▪️▪️◾◾◾▪️▪️▪️◾◾◾▪️▪️▪️ "You remind me so much of Spinner. So I can't help but think meeting you had something to do with my big brother..." She confessed. "You really believe in that kind of stuff?" I asked surprised. "Are you kidding? Of course.. Don't you?" "I don't know.. I mean, does heaven or hell really exist?" "I believe it does. I mean, there has to be someplace peaceful that we go to after our time is up" she said. "I guess everyone needs something to believe in" "I believe in you" she barley whispered. I'd like to deny it.. But I can't. That literally made my heart skip a beat. I lightly caressed her chin with my thumb and stared into her eyes. "I believe in you to" I don't know, maybe she's right.. Maybe there is a heaven.. CHECK OUT MY STORIES! *Not So Bad After All -Book one *Love like boomerang -Book two to Not so bad after all *Too Far Gone: A Stepbrother Romance GO CHECK THEM OUT. I THINK YOU GUYS WOULD ENJOY THEM A LOT💜

The Days With No Sun by hello-no-one

Sometimes we fear truth over reality. But things get dark and heavy and we play the blame game. We end up hurting others or ourselves even. We don't think before we act or we don't say before we do. This is the evolution of my madness. A cluster of rants and thoughts and poems for you guys. Everything is written how I wanted it to be rants will be long with few pauses and there will be mistakes I might have skipped over. Aha. Poems at the beginning from when I was 15 years old to now when Im 18. Truly a visual of my writing evolution. Edited by @ChemicalStarling who writes a lot but never posts! Read on, loves. I'll see you on the other side...

I Fell in Love with a Bad Boy by Beautiful_Tragedy8

CRINGE WARNING! First book I ever wrote on here!! -- "Sometimes the person who you are willing to take a bullet for is the person behind the gun." I stood peering over the cold lifeless body that lay before my eyes. I had always thought of death the enemy, but right now, I blessed it upon the person who is now at peace. Sometimes you don't need to be the smartest, or the fastest, but you do need to be wisest. They say the blood runs deeper than water, and I believe it, because even though the people that we love can turn on us and begin to hate us, they are only human, meaning that soon they will begin to see how short life really is and how it is not to be wasted. People who seem perfect and they look like they have no floors'; they are the people who are suffering, like I was. But I found my savior in the most uncommon place. He was able to look through my mask, he saw the cracks, and tried to fix the broken girl that hid away deep inside the girl who only wanted to be seen as 'fine'. I slowly began to find comfort and safety in him, and I did the same to him. We were two broken people becoming whole. Someone once said when you pass, if you can count your true friends on one hand you are beyond lucky, and I even though I did not like the person that lay before me, I know that he once had true friends, including me. I'm a 17 year old girl who has suffered more than any other, beginning to believe that 'Hope' was just another word the people throw around. Until I fell in love with a badboy. Trailer to the side -------------------> Made By @Laura__1 Cover made by @Beautiful_Tragedy8 Copyright 2014

Pieces of Me. by beautiful_wish

Hi there, how are you? I hope you're okay. Like the title says, this book is made of pieces of me, sort of like a diary. Each chapter has its topic, message and feeling. I write it as my life goes on, pouring my heart out, mentioning a lot of the past and situations I haven't overcome, voicing my struggles, wins and losses, lessons and pain. I hope this helps you somehow, I mean, if I'm gonna be posting my life anonymously on the internet I can try at least to help someone. Never forget, you are not alone. This is for you. Good luck :) *trigger warning*- please if you get triggered easily or are going through a hard situation don't read this book, specially the chapters: Puppy thoughts. The Need. -Sequel: Head High (on my profile)

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Playgirl's Addiction

"How could you! I trusted you! You promised you would stop this!" "Well that was your own fucking mistake wasn't it? I told you from the start that this was why I didn't want to date you!" "What the fuck happened to you? You're not at all the same person I met and originally fell for." "Yeah, your right this is who I am now! I'm not that little broken helpless girl you met on the streets years ago Aaron! I warned you from the start but just like him you wanted to actually believe that would all change over night!" "Just tell me one thing.. was any of it real like how my love for you was real?" This content is for ages 18+ please ask a parent before proceeding to read if under 18. I will not be at fault for anyone losing innocence or reading something they shouldn't. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK Purchase full book off of Amazon. Started: July 30th, 2021 Finished: June 8th, 2022