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The Sky and Guilt Are The Only Feelings I have Left

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Reads 3,081
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Parts 28
Time 21h 39m

Mature

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Akaashi is at his wits end. He feels nothing. He's quickly crumbling as a human being. He wants nothing but sweet release of death. In his fourth year of college he drafts a plan for his suicide. He is to graduate, publish writing for others to be inspired by, and slip quietly away. Shortly after, he meets a dog walker named Bokuto who asks him out and Akaashi reluctantly agrees. Nothing matters anymore and he treats Bokuto like an obligation. Until he's not anymore.


Angst
Smut 
Small fluff
Slow burn

⚠️⚠️TALKS ABOUT: RAPE, SUCIDE ATTEMPTS (multiple), HOSPITALIZATION, AND ISOLATION⚠️⚠️All Rights Reserved

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