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The Sky and Guilt Are The Only Feelings I have Left

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Reads 3,073
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Parts 28
Time 21h 39m

Mature

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Akaashi is at his wits end. He feels nothing. He's quickly crumbling as a human being. He wants nothing but sweet release of death. In his fourth year of college he drafts a plan for his suicide. He is to graduate, publish writing for others to be inspired by, and slip quietly away. Shortly after, he meets a dog walker named Bokuto who asks him out and Akaashi reluctantly agrees. Nothing matters anymore and he treats Bokuto like an obligation. Until he's not anymore.


Angst
Smut 
Small fluff
Slow burn

⚠️⚠️TALKS ABOUT: RAPE, SUCIDE ATTEMPTS (multiple), HOSPITALIZATION, AND ISOLATION⚠️⚠️All Rights Reserved

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Hyacinth || BokuAka by BookLover11166

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Why I hate you, Akaashi Keiji by mrstodorokishoto

Akaashi x Reader Haikyuu Fanfiction Haunted by her insecurities she tries to get through college. But with constant fights with Akaashi and his soul crushing blank stare, it seems impossible to handle. Will the two get along for the sake of their shared friend Bokuto? Notes: 18+ Smut she/her pronouns college AU insecure reader SHORT STORY AND SLOW UPDATES! I do not own any of the characters except for my OCs and the plot! All credit goes to Haruichi Furudate. Do not post my stories anywhere else! hope you enjoy!

You're Owl I Need by kmehdeh

Bokuto is not human. He never was. Yet he has to live in the human world, has to pretend to be something he isn't. A human. When he reveals himself to a mysterious boy he saved, Bokuto is determined to find him again. When he does he is now is torn between feeling more human with Akashi or accepting what he is. A Nightmare. Trigger Warning! Will contain: - Suicidal Attempts -Cutting -Abuse Please do not read if these topics are triggering to you.

In another life // Bokuaka by hatsumix

Sleeping didn't come as easy as it used to. Bokuto knew this, and now Akaashi did, too. The hospital AU that no body asked for, but that I took upon myself to write. _______ Disclaimer : All credits of writing this go to Littleluxray, the original one can be found on archive of our own! Credits to art/book cover also goes to Rheatan which can be found on Deviantart As said I do not own this story, I just wanted to share it :>

Please don't leave me by mel-bloop

The life of Bokuto and Akaashi with an unexpected event ⚠️TW⚠️ Implied depression Death Killing

THIEF // BokuAka by oiwuzzup

The hands that have broken many things including lives, for once in Bokuto's entire life, trembles as he approaches his boyfriend. The cries every night, the new fresh untainted paper in the journal, the revealing secrets - Akaashi had enough. They had enough. These monsters in this world should turn into trees, wolves should stop howling, and tides in the ocean should stop pushing-pulling them in different obscure directions. One step at a time, their lips met under the collided stars above them. --- In which Bokuto Koutarou is an international thief met a very normal Akaashi Keiji, and like every love story, two different people fall in love. Bokuto Koutarou!Thief

𝙃𝙊𝙒 𝙏𝙊 𝘽𝙀 𝘼 𝙎𝙀𝘾𝙍𝙀𝙏 𝘼𝘿𝙈𝙄𝙍𝙀𝙍 // 𝙖𝙠𝙖𝙖𝙨𝙝𝙞 𝙠. by TSK11SHM

"[...] i'm made for a soul-crushing romance, i need someone who won't be ashamed to worship the ground i walk on, because that's how i love, i give myself completely, i love every day as if there could be no tomorrow, i- god, do you know even one guy who would choose that?" 'i do', akaashi thought, swallowing a lump in his throat, because he understood. 'me.' he felt like it was written all over his face what was going through his mind at the time. 'i would choose that,' he desperately repeated in his mind. [...]" 𐙚˙⋆.🧸•₊✧⋆˚✒️｡⋆ᡣ𐭩 akaashi x f!reader, she/her pronouns, can be read as oc story, college setting, poet x muse, secret admirer; start: 24/06/2024 end: i do not own any haikyuu characters.

Sweet Deception - Bokuaka by tsummm

[COMPLETED] Akaashi is part of his father's crime gang. A specific mission causes a new member to join their gang - a member that Akaashi doesn't like. But will his hate turn into love? What'll happen when Akaashi discovers that Bokuto has a secret of his own? A tale of love, betrayal, and secrets from the past! ⚠️Warning: I do not own the Haikyuu characters. Characters may not have the same personality as they do in the manga. ⚠️Warning: This story contains mature themes such as death, blood, and violence. If you are uncomfortable, please don't continue.

Make Me Whole [bokuaka] by bo-love

Computer company exec Akaashi Keiji has just been introduced to the ace of the MSBY Black Jackals, Bokuto Kotaro. Sparks fly from the beginning, and at first Akaashi thinks the ace is out of his league. However, as they get to know each other, Akaashi begins to fall for the golden eyed spiker. Until Bokuto isolates himself and won't speak to anyone, Akaashi included. CW: bipolar disorder, attempted suicide, suicidal ideation, self-harm, cutting, mania, depression This is an AU fanfic. All characters are in their 20s. Mostly fluff with some angst and a little smut. Part 2 of MSBY series (2 of 3) I do not own the Haikyuu characters. I do not own the cover art.

Everything's Changed. (Akaashi X Reader) by steph_703

Running into eachother. Watching their smile grow for eachother. Falling in love. It was never to be expected. Y/n l/n is a first year at Tokyo University. She's had a hard life battling something no one should have to battle. She has walls. Boundaries. Insecurities. And strength. She was ready to start her new life. A fresh start. He was ready to finally join his best friend in university. A new adventure. Create a new chapter in his life. But love was never their intention. A/N: Warning! Tissues needed. 🍂(Completed!) 🍂 🍂DISCLAIMER🍂 I do NOT own any of the Haikyu Characters! I also do not own any of the pictures in this book, I only added the title to the cover. All credit goes to the artist. Lots of research has gone into this book for a true depiction.

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Hyacinth || BokuAka

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