i'm so sick of seventeen (those golden years)

Jungwon knows Sunoo knows.

He also knows his hyung is just waiting for him to bring it up first. For all his claims of being 'the king of gossip' and a 'lover of drama', Sunoo always seems to get when to mind his business. Jungwon probably should talk to him. Normally, there isn't anything he wouldn't talk to Sunoo about. It's just every time he thinks he's ready to tell Sunoo about Sunghoon-his feelings about Sunghoon-he freezes.

Talking to Sunoo means that this-whatever 'this' is, becomes real.

or

At 18 years old, Yang Jungwon has done more things than most people do in their lifetime. He's the leader of a wildly popular idol group, even has several awards to prove it.

He should be happy.

He should feel fulfilled-he's living out his biggest dream. How many other people can say that?

Instead, he wakes up every morning and worries if he's good enough to even be here. He wakes up and prays that he isn't so obvious in his feelings that he causes a nationwide scandal and ruins their group forever.

Weren't these supposed to be the golden years?