Definition -) The place where you go after you die. -)The place where you feel welcome, comfortable and save. That is what I am searching for. My heaven. But both options are only reachable for me after my actions. Or plan I guess. After all, I planned it since I was thirteen and have waited for five years now to finally do it. I will search and find my heaven because I do not care what it takes. I just do not care anymore. Even if it costs my life.