Unfinished story of the lost

This story, is merely a way to express thoughts of mine, which would be widely deemed to be pessimistic. Done so to show the view of one person, a view many may had encountered. Connecting the same with those that are the same. Each chapter would be completely different, no indication of a continuous story. Merely thoughts that come to be or events that occurred.
Story will be following from a first person narrative around a character named...for this purpose he will go by Havi.