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Journal of a woman's thoughts

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Reads 190
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Parts 10
Time 57m

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I'm the kind of woman that's thinking a lot, and torturing myself with bad thoughts. And I know i'm not the only one. So here is how it feels to be in that kind of woman's head. 
I'm starding by talking about my relation ship in wish i'm not as happy as I thought. 

Hope this will help you.

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"Everything I Wish I Knew" by daisywritess_

Everything I've always dreamt of was a fairytale type of romance. Everything I've ever wanted was to find my prince charming, one who buys me flowers and chocolates. Everything I've silently prayed for was for a hand to pull me from the suffocation torment I was drawing in. And my heart thought I've found all that since the first time I saw 𝐉𝐚𝐱𝐨𝐧 𝐒𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐡; the most beautiful guy that made my heart flutter. But everything I thought I knew about love was wrong. The prince charming I thought was going to be my savior ended up being my destroyer. I'm 𝐊𝐞𝐢𝐥𝐚 𝐃𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐬, and this is everything I wish I knew before I fell for my cataclysmic prince. [𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 #𝟐 - 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟏]

The Fate Of Broken Hearts by Al_Masian

- PREVIOUSLY KNOWN AS 'The Scars Of Your Love' - Emmeline Adams is just getting settled into her new life as a college student in Berkeley, California. She has her entire life mapped out on paper and her sights set on a successful career. However, when dropping off her new roommate at a party the day before college begins, she stumbles across a pair of grey eyes that derail her plans before she ever realises it. Aiden Blackwood was known for his bad temper and lack of empathy. However, behind the tall walls he's built to protect himself, he's far more than just an acclaimed villain. He symbolises everything Emma distrusts. She embodies everything Aiden fears. So what happens when this shattered man surrounded by darkness discovers a light at the end of a very long tunnel? --- Hi Everyone! This is my first story so it's a little rough around the edges, definitely not perfect, but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless. MATURE AUDIENCE WARNING: May contain graphic depictions of violence, sexuality, strong language, and/or other mature themes. Accomplishments 🥇 in LoveAtFirstSight 🥇 in Complicated 🥇 in OppositesAttract 🥇 in ComplicatedRelationships 🥇 in Trending 🥇 in BadPast 🥇 in Heartbreak 🥇 in Jealousy 🥇 in RomanticSuspense 🥇 in YoungRomance 🥈 in ComingOfAge 🥈 in LoveHate

❤︎Poetry On The Wall❤︎ by 00Hannah_hannaH00

⚠️Mentions of Self Harm and other such triggering topics are predominant in this writing. ⚠️ All of the writings under this cover will be cringe poetry that will touch upon my feelings and such throughout my personal experiences. All that I ask is you find respect in your heart to let me express being in love from my perspective ^^ NOTE:this is part two of my poems, if you want to read my previous writes check out my other post before this one <3 thank you all sm for the support

FOCUS [BXB] by 1sth1saUsername

Like a bolt of lightning, this stupid boy appeared in my life. First day of summer break between first and second grade, he just appeared- standing on my porch like he was born there. Straight brown hair, wide dark eyes and a fresh sunburn across his cheeks. He was already talking before I even opened the door. I don't know how it happened but it's been ten years. And he's still here. Talking, whether or not I'm listening. Laughing, even if no one else is. He's still too quick- racing around the world like he's scared he's going to miss it. He's gotten taller...much taller. His hair is a little longer, a little wavier, but under the light it still looks the same golden brown it did when we were nine. And now, finally, he was a high school graduate. We both were. Like a bolt of lightning he appeared and like the sun he refused to disappear. _____________________________________________ I fell asleep with my chin pointed at him, the outline of his face being the last thing I saw. How was I supposed to do this? It had always been difficult, hiding this secret, keeping him close. But now, my focus was starting to slip. I couldn't see anything but his lips, his hands, his smile. I couldn't hear anything but my name in his mouth, his jagged breaths and that loud laugh. How am I supposed to be okay with this? How am I supposed to focus on anything other than him? #1- slowburn- 11.10.25🥇 #1- friends to lovers- 11.01.25🥇 #1- fluffandsmut- 11.02.25🥇 #1- college- 11.06.25🥇 #1- best friends- 11.12.25🥇 #1- teammates- 12.04.25 🥇 #3- bxblove- 11.30.25🥉 #4- boyxboy- 11.01.25 #4- lgbt- 11.15.25 #28- mental health- 11.09.25 #31- coming of age- 11.15.25 #36- roommates- 11.04.25 #56- basketball- 11.05.25 #60- secret relationship- 11.02.25 #74- boyxboyromance- 11.01.25

We Sleep at Sunset (Ember 1) by immoralLaurel

His hand shifts under my sweater cuff, sliding up to my forearm. ''Tell me you don't feel it.'' I brush my fingers over his collarbones, just above the worn edge of his shirt. Beneath it, I feel the faint shift of muscle, the stutter in his breathing. He kisses me hot and hard. Like a collapse, His hands slide under my clothes to my neck and my hair where they make fists. My scalp prickles. He lets me taste a future with him, to feel it in the thrust of his tongue and bite of his teeth. I'm panting, and aching, and still, we know this won't change anything. Still, he kisses me bruised. 𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠𝙨 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙪𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙨𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠𝙨 𝙨𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙚𝙨 𝙞𝙩 BOOK ONE C O N T A I N S : ❤︎ sexual/mature content ❤︎ violence/abuse/trauma ❤︎ flawed characters (and development) Copyright © 2018-present Laurel Montaze (immoralLaurel). This body of work (story, characters, ideas) is available exclusively on Wattpad. If you're viewing it on a different website/platform or under a different username, it has been illegally stolen. Please notify the original author. © All Rights Reserved

Irrevocably (COMPLETED) by esemdeaye

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Something About You | Chresanto A. | by Shaaniaa

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Unwanted. Broken. Abused by greenishbeans

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Covered Edges by amarag44

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"Everything I Wish I Knew"

Everything I've always dreamt of was a fairytale type of romance. Everything I've ever wanted was to find my prince charming, one who buys me flowers and chocolates. Everything I've silently prayed for was for a hand to pull me from the suffocation torment I was drawing in. And my heart thought I've found all that since the first time I saw 𝐉𝐚𝐱𝐨𝐧 𝐒𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐡; the most beautiful guy that made my heart flutter. But everything I thought I knew about love was wrong. The prince charming I thought was going to be my savior ended up being my destroyer. I'm 𝐊𝐞𝐢𝐥𝐚 𝐃𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐬, and this is everything I wish I knew before I fell for my cataclysmic prince. [𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 #𝟐 - 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟏]