Angst⚠️ Fanfic! Do not read if you are Sensitive to Berdly, Self harm, Suicide, and underage drinking. 18+⚠️ Berdly's realization of him not being #1 in Class and Noelle being above him is finally getting to him and the deep dark despair pool of pain that comes with knowing he'll never amount to anything finally made the decision for him.