Take me back home

Have you ever had a near death experience? I've had one and let me tell you, it was great! Now that's all I can think about. How to get back to the thing that I love most... death. It's beautiful, dark, and peaceful. Some people call me suicidal, I say I'm just trying to find my place in life, and since that hasn't worked out, well death is my only other alternative. I just want to go home, it's not like anyone will miss me.