My BLOOD, Your PAINT - BLUE PERIOD

"𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙖𝙢𝙚, 𝙄 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙥𝙞𝙨𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢 𝙗𝙤𝙩𝙝"

Reminder: ⚠️
Various BLUE PERIOD x Male Reader/Reader insert
Many sensitive themes
Angst
1/3 acts completed
Started: 10/12/2021
Ended:

I despise illustrations, yet I keep doing it. People are the same approach. Despite the fact that I detest communicating with others, I continue to hang around. Both activities are significant. It's meant to make people satisfied. I do things in order to be acknowledged and rewarded. I do things in order for others to like me. I do things in an attempt for people to see how hard I work. I sometimes forget what I'm meant to be doing. I forget many things.

I run the risk of losing myself, forget who I am, and neglect about others. I experience a loss when I am touched affectionately. I'm so humiliating, so ignorant, so vulnerable. I rely on others, but I'd rather that they depend on me instead. I do matters I don't want to do since doing what others did allowed me fit in, but it wasn't my best attribute, so it made matters severe. Individuals argue over who I should be when I eventually wanted to accomplish the things I wanted to do. I lost track of who I was as I absorbed the words into my consciousness. I ended up being multiple versions of myself. All of these creatures saw me as an object.

I was the paint for those painters.

The paint was my blood.

#392 drawing 16/12/2021
#187 drawing 17/12/2021
#148 drawing 18/12/2021
#76 drawing 24/12/2022