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A way to release my thoughts into the world, not looking for feedback but just to let people struggling with mental issues relate. I hope that you can find something relatable in my writing. Feeling alone while trying to actively get myself up and going is a process I would love to see myself and others succeed with, That being said this is an old account and this is, just for not fun but for some sense of help. Thank you and I hope for the best with those who are struggling, hold on. You are worth it. 

!!!!!!TRIGGERWARNINGS!!!!!!!
I wont hold back from how my situation or those around me have dealt with because everyone deserves to be heard and feel like they aren't alone. I am as brutal with my writing as I am with myselfAll Rights Reserved

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