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Reads 282,276
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'There is always some madness in love. But there is also some reason in madness.' - Friedrich Nietzsche

After losing his family, Alden had lost a lot of himself too. Years later he still hadn't been able to make himself whole again. Maybe he never will, but with a new foster family, a loving purple haired friend, and a crush he might finally act upon, Alden's life might finally be getting better. 

That doesn't mean there are no more bad days, for him or the people around him, but maybe those bad days will become a little easier to get through.


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- trauma, grief, sexual abuse related issues mentionedAll Rights Reserved

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Seeing Silver by Croxxjaded666

Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Love... Is love what this feeling is called? "You're beautiful, you're absolutely perfect, you'll never need to change for me. I promise babyboy."

Reap the Earth at Which you Stand [boyxboy] by FKNichols17

Growing up in chaos isn't simple for all. Not many could cope. They would struggle and kick, but ultimately drown. However, for Dakota, that was his normality. Torturing. Maiming. Killing. That was his life, the life of a hunter. The Arizona line was elusive, written fame in the lore of hunters, and infamy for their prey. They were the best. No one could ever compare to their skills, their abilities, their ruthlessness. But Dakota was something else. His siblings might have learnt to enjoy the hunt, well most of them anyway, but Dakota didn't. There was always something missing for him, something he was waiting on. Silent and everlasting hope. A promise had been made to him, the day his twin brother was stolen, taken by the enemy, plucked right from the very home the Arizonas had grown up in. A promise of something better, something that he might actually want in his life. Now, almost sixteen years later, something was coming. A change was begging to be found. Maybe it would be for the best. Maybe Dakota would finally find that certain something that had been missing his whole life, something to fill the dark and fractured abyss that ached and wailed within. But nothing was ever that simple. Because, of course, the promise that had been made to Dakota would never be anything plausible for him, anything tangible to have and to hold. He had been promised a new life, by the greatest enemy of them all. It wouldn't be easy. Not with his family still clinging to his heels, the teachings of blood and violence burnt into his mind. No, leaving them behind wouldn't ever be easy. Then again, staying with them would only bring his inevitable death. Why not take the chance to die happy? After all, out of the ashes, a phoenix will rise...

IDIOT AND THE BEAST ✔️ by fragmented-

(ONLY AVAILABLE ON BMAC) (LINK IS ON PROFILE) *** "YOU KISSED ME," "YOU PUNCHED ME!" "BECAUSE YOU KISSED ME!" "YOU'D JUST PUNCH ME THEN?" "WELL YOU TOOK ME BY SURPRISE; YOU SHOULD'VE AT LEAST ASKED ME FIRST" "OKAY. SO CAN I KISS YOU?"

reason to live (short story) - (UPDATED)✔️ by chinaaudrianna

(WARNING I DIDN'T CAPITALIZE THIS STORY, AND THIS IS MY FIRST MENTAL HEALTH STORY SO PLEASE BARE WITH ME AND I DO WANT TO HEAR OPINIONS ON HOW I CAN GROW BETTER IN THE FUTURE シ thank you.) Nolan is a young adult who goes through stages of grief from a mental illness called ptsd which causes him to feel conflict of which he endures mostly towards his relationship with Elliot Hamilton. It is up to Elliot to show Nolan just how much he means to the world with little things that constantly consist of the two's everyday lifestyle. Nolan has to learn how to love all while setting aside the traumatic pain he endured by trying to become a better vision of himself for his lover.

Small Doses by TheAnonymousStalker

5 years ago, I lost my best friend. All because he confessed his feelings for me and I over thought things. I was left on my own only to realize too late that the feelings were mutual. Now, I vow to love the next guy wholeheartedly, with no reservations, no regrets. I only live once. Let's not make things complicated. When I love, I love period. - Mew Bennett I have never been in love. Sure I've been with girls but I never felt the need to take care of anyone. To be responsible with another person's feelings is just so big a burden, I'd rather not experience it. I'm all for self-preservation, to be secured in who I am without having to worry about hurting someone else. Let's not make things complicated. I don't intend to fall in love period. -Gulf McQueen

A Sacred Wish by RejoiceJuliet7

.......Story Completed...... On his first day of college, he saw a man from his recurring dreams. Dreams he shouldn't have. A Life he was not supposed to remember. A love that left unsaid in the past. A Sacred Wish of a sage that gave another chance. One remembers and the Other doesn't. Will Love have the power to revive itself? Buckle up for the journey of Pain, Sacrifice and lots and lots of Love. [Disclaimer: This story is a work of fiction. Any resemblance is purely coincidental. I came up with this story in my head. Hope you all support me on this journey❤️]

Out of reasons (M×M) ✔ by sweetcaressesofmay

Only a few months after his dad's death, Daniel decides to leave his hometown to study in an art school at countryside. New ambience would surely help him deal with his dad's death, but what if it, instead, only gives him more issues to deal with? In his new school Daniel meets an illicitly good-looking guy, who seems almost too good to be true. It would have been a perfect beginning of the journey, if Daniel didn't have to share his dormitory flat with a bad-tempered and dishevelled roommate.. CW: violence, sexual assault, trauma, mentions of suicide, panic attacks 2019 (original), 2022 (edited).

Books For You by V3CNAS_CURSE

AUGUST HUXLEY was the type of person to never care about himself, only others. He lived a quiet life since no one bothered to know him, his only friends being his sister, her boyfriend, and their childhood best friend. August is going through his eleventh grade year and is slowly falling apart as the grades eat him alive and his mental health depletes, and it doesn't help when you have a jock who's favorite past time is beating you up. August would much rather not complain about what's going on since his sister already has so much on her plate, but so does he. In all honesty, August would rather be.... dead. NOLAN LEDGER is the son of world-renowned actors and was forced into acting at the ripe age of one. Being famous was all he ever knew, he didn't get to live the normal teenager life of going to in-person school or hanging out with friends, maybe even diving into the parents liquor cabinets when they were away, but then again how could you when you're watched like a hawk by not only your parents but the press? One wrong move and your whole career is destroyed. All Nolan ever wanted was to live a normal life like other seventeen year olds, but he knows that he could have it worse. But sometimes he wishes the worst would be his case because in his mind.... acting was slowly chipping away at his happiness if he ever had genuine happiness. When the two meet in an unexpected way the hope of a friend drew them in but the two would be thrown for a loop when what they thought was a love that friends shared turned into something a litte more.... romantic. With careers on the line and a depleting mental health, will the two boys get the love they've craved from that special someone for so long or will one of them be taking that longing to the grave? *heavily unedited, it WILL have grammatical errors <3*

Cause for Concern ✓ by swallowedhearts

Saying that Max Oran is a disaster would be an understatement: he got himself kicked out of school, his dad has sent him to live with his emotionally distant mother and his friends don't want anything to do with him. When Max starts at his new school, he meets Cole Benson and his turbulent but loyal friends. As Max develops new bonds and begins to fall for Cole, he realizes that, despite everything, he might have stumbled into something beautiful. Eager to embrace the second chance that life has given him, Max begins counseling and, with the help of Cole and his newfound friends, tries to move forward. However, he quickly realizes that there are more bumps ahead than he was prepared for and is forced to decide if he's going to push past his problems or let his mistakes hold him back forever. [ September 2021. - January. 2022. ] #1 in counseling #3 in mental illness #8 in queer #12 in moving on #13 in youth #19 in growing up #24 in bisexual #31 in daddy issues #66 in ya #89 in mental health

insecurities... by _casually_cruel

[BxB].I have scars, it's not a question, it's a statement, scars inside and out. I have never loved anyone, as much as I love him, but I can't commit to anything, I won't commit to anyone. I can't seem to get out of my own head, I want him so fucking badly, but I won't be broken by love. I have commitment issues, I have anger issues, I have so many issues, and he's just one of many insecurities.

Abyss in My Head... (Yaoi, Psychological) by IshiiMichiko

{Complete, 14 Chapters & an Epilogue} How does it feel loving a person who has a serious mental problem? Due to a traumatic past, Lyle lost all his memories and developed a Post-traumatic Stress Disorder. He suffered from panic attacks, anxieties, recurring nightmares and a habit of harming himself . Kieran knew Lyle couldn't remember anything. He also knew that there was only a tiny chance of being able to gain the young man's love again. He wasn't giving up though. ...even if it means being in a relationship where his patience, understanding and acceptance were constantly being tested, Kieran was determined to stay. WARNING: THIS BOOK IS NOT FOR THE SENSITIVE AND FAINT-HEARTED ONES. So many triggers inside. Please skip the book if you think you can't handle it.

Save Me by Susurrations

"I was lost in a world of sex and drugs and boys, until he came along. It kind of hit me by surprise, how easily I fell in love with him. To everyone but him, I was just a heartless bastard. Maybe they were right about me. Maybe I couldn't be saved. People have died trying, after all, and their blood was on my hands. But maybe, just maybe... I could still be saved. (3rd book in the FM Trilogy)

One of Those Nights (boyxboy) by 5am6am7am

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Pretty Boy by acerivk

Pretty Boy How could you exactly define yourself as being pretty? Is keeping myself high, be enough? Would the wounds around my body, mark me as to being one? Could drowning myself with alcohol guarantee me into feeling like that? Because if it does, then I guess being wrecked and having an obscure life are things that could be defined as being pretty. But, being pretty comes with a cost, and seeing your friend as to being one is just plainly forbidden. But what if the forbidden nature of it all, could come falling into a mess that's nowhere near as pretty as him. Would it fall into shattered pieces or could it fix what is already broken? And would the love that both of them are willing to give each other be enough to overpower the bigger repercussions that'll probably come out of it? [Smut Included]

CARNIVORE [MxM+] by redeyesofg59

{MxMxMxM} "I'm everything I can't be, and I hate it. But I can't do anything about the situation I'm in, so I'll have to deal with it. " .... Tycho Black was struggling with a few things in his life with no one to save him but himself. He didn't really care though, considering it was easy to block out unwanted things. Whether it was thoughts, physical or emotional pain, or anything else- at the end of the day none of it mattered to him. He didn't care that he could possibly feel some sick attraction to men, even though he had never felt attraction before. He didn't care about going home and being met with nothing but fear. And he certainly didn't care about Alexei Abbots or the other older and mysterious men Alexei was associated with. Alexei in particular, though, was just a little weasel that wouldn't leave his mind. He thought he could block him out like every other person, like every other male that made him think in such a bad way. But somehow, for the first time, he couldn't force himself to forget the expression on the boy's face when his fist collided roughly with his jaw. ~ Alexei Abbots was happy. Really, really happy. He was open, free, and accepted by the two best women he had ever met who completely turned his life around. Not only was he welcomed with open arms by his two mothers, but he was also met with the arms of two men he had a mutual fondness for: Riley Worthright and Xavier Mendoza. He was on top of the world, and his not-so-gentle past wouldn't change that. Neither would Tycho Black, the aggressive bully on campus who seemed to get off on being a homophobic a-hole.

Zane & Soren (completed but editing) by hyperaltive

"Don't cry because he left. Smile because he gave you an opportunity to find someone better." ~ Unknown Zane has been navigating a particularly difficult period over the last few months. His once-close friendships have started to crumble, leaving him feeling isolated and alone. At the same time, his romantic relationships have also taken a downturn, creating a sense of heartbreak and confusion. As a result, he often finds himself questioning what his future holds. He struggles with feelings of uncertainty and doubt, wondering if there's any hope for brighter days ahead. Soren had been living what many would call his best life for as long as he could remember. Each day unfolded with the warmth of strong friendships, laughter echoing through his home, and a comforting sense of stability. Yet, despite this picture-perfect existence, he couldn't shake the feeling that something essential was absent. There was a lingering sense of incompleteness as if he were missing a crucial piece of the puzzle that would elevate his life from great to extraordinary. What, or who, could fill that void and truly allow him to feel like he was living the dream? The two crossed paths on an ordinary school day as they walked through the halls, surrounded by the sounds of chatter and footsteps. Their minds wandered - what would happen next? Would they simply part ways, or would this spark lead to something more significant?

Dissolved mind by KayoriStrawberry

If you kept a mask on for your whole life...who are you really? If you only act the way people would love you to. When you lost yourself a long time ago. What is left? besides insanity? Why do i have to keep this mask? It's his fault, his! I should've ended this a while ago. Wouldn't there be him and this for god sake calming blue eyes... Like a slowly ripped off bandaid crawls the pain back into Damian's mind. His heart shattered and filled with tears, but his mind screams for revenge. A road that is covered in blood and tears instead of rose petals.

Rumours [BxB] ✔️ by redxstorm

↞↞↞♛↠↠↠ Everyone makes at least one mistake in their life; if you don't, you're not human. I just happen to be one of those people who make a lot of mistakes. To start with, there were the Rumours. You know, those things that only powerful people can make up? Yeah. Those. They were the beginning of everything that ever went wrong in my life, but also the thing that led me to the end. Although, I didn't know that at the time, so a few bruises and kisses down the line, I found myself faced with a big problem. I had to choose between three people, all of whom had been lying about everything for months. That wasn't an easy task for someone like me, but the biggest issue? The one who made me cry the most tears was the one I couldn't help but love. ↞↞↞♛↠↠↠ "I never meant to hurt you, River." "Then why did you do it? Why did you do all of those things? I'm not some toy for you to use when you feel like it and then throw away when you're done." ↞↞↞♛↠↠↠ Completed ✔️ Started: 15/03/19 Finished: 18/08/19

Look After You by vinylplanets

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Seeing Silver

Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Pain. Angel. Hunger. Perfect. Love... Is love what this feeling is called? "You're beautiful, you're absolutely perfect, you'll never need to change for me. I promise babyboy."