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Attempting Love

awkwardsometimes

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Reads 1,193
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Parts 21
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awkwardsometimes

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Everyone was talking about their new years resolutions, planning parties, and excitedly getting ready for the new year.


Except for me.


I wouldn't make it to New Years, I was sure of it. After living like this for so long, I was ready to go.


December 29th. It was snowing, freezing cold, everyone busy speeding down the highway, except for me.


The brown haired girl wearing nothing but a pair of torn jeans, a white dress, red jacket, and ratty old converse standing at the top of the bridge, preparing to jump off.


But then he stopped me, and my life would never be the same.All Rights Reserved

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Moving In by _CallMe_Crazy

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Survivor

I felt an ice cold tear spill down my pink and flustered cheeks and as it did I reached up and wiped it away with the sleeve of my hoodie. I dared to glance a look to my left and saw Jamie watching me. We locked eyes, he smiled and then looked away, but I couldn't bring myself to stop staring. His deep brown eyes were a daydream and his shoulder length hair a... trap for destruction. No, I couldn't let myself go there. I was just setting myself up to be hurt... again. I've had enough of that for a lifetime.