Hiding behind myself (ON HOLD)
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Ongoing33m
Last published Sun, Jan 16, 2022
Riley Meyers is a highschool student struggling with anxiety. Nobody understands her problem, not even she does. This short story is about the time she notices that being different from others is not always bad and that there is always a reason to keep fighting.
"In the end, everything will be ok. If it's not ok, it's not yet the end."
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Trigger Warning:
-panic attack
-screaming
-possible suicidal thoughts!!
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Hellu, this is my first story since 2019 and also my first story in english, therefore I would appreciate feedback :]
I hope you enjoy!!
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If you think there should be a trigger warning for something else, feel free to contact me. I'll add it asap.
(cover picture: https://www.pinterest.de/pin/615022892871301532/)
*Rankings
10.01.2022 #111 in health (out of 37.3k)
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