MOTIVE

"Gen!" "Gen please!" I hear Harry yell from behind me. My eyesight is blurry from my tears and i feel like i can hardly breath. He has to have good explanation for what I've just seen right? if not hes a total psycho. how could he be doing something that violent and not be batting an eye?

During the contemplating with myself i hadn't realized that i had slowed down. meaning harry had caught up with me. grabbing a hold of my wrists and holding me close to him. But repel away due to the state of his stained hands not wanting him to touch me.

"Gen please i have an explanation." he looks so distraught and like his thoughts are racing a mile a second. "I know you wont look at me the same again, and i never intended for you to see that side of me... ever but you did and i have to own up for it." tears start gathering in his eyes as he gets down on his knees in front of me. "If you never want to see me again i understand, but id rather you know why i was doing what i was doing.. and not just thinking I'm some psychotic nut job whose doing it for fun."

"Harry." I start out he look surprised that i even spoke. " I am having so many thoughts right now i don't even know how to comprehend anything i just saw... but I would like and explanation. So be by my house by 10 tomorrow and i would like you to explain." He visibly lets out a breath he was holding " I'll see you tomorrow okay?" He gives me a small smile standing back up " Thank you." "I'll see you tomorrow Gen."

I turn around and start to walk away and i begin to hyperventilate god i really need to be I'm my house and just go to bed and not even think about tomorrow. If I'm being honest i don't want to be around him but i love him to much to not let him explain and maybe he does have good reason? I'm doing it for my sake id rather know than be left in the dark coming up with multiple reasons why he had done it.

I guess I'll see what tomorrow brings