A Stoner's Lament
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After years of pondering my existence and searching for answers to why my life never worked out the way I wanted, an old friend told me to look deep into my heart and find what I believe is the truth. Only then will I be able to heal from trauma and a childhood full of neglect. I'm not special for the events I've suffered; at the end of the day I'm just a regular person who's trying to recover. I can only hope you won't judge me too harshly for my opinions because this is a project for myself. I'm not here to make you happy. I just want to find my own.
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