The Ramblings of a Rootfop
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Swallowed whole by her racing thoughts and constant daydreams, a young teenage girl sits alone on her rooftop, watching the world go by. Anxiety eating her alive, the constant shakes and fears. She doesn't feel like she belongs in such a cruel place. Everyday things get more and more boring. She often wonders whether her days are numbered.
Honestly I have too many thoughts and I just decided to write them down in the perspective of somebody else I can relate to, it helps as it makes me feel less alone. This is more of a vent book tbh. Im so scared to post it as I hate it but hope you enjoy and let me know if you like it.
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