Center of Attention

My heart would beat so fast, that I'd get a tight sharpened pain in my chest as my body would shake and go numb, every time my teammates and coaches would surround me after winning a medal. Every practice I'd tell myself, "I want to get better for myself," and every meet I'd tell myself, "I want to quit." But after every meet, I'd get to talk to the only person in school who treats me as, just Rae Thompson, not the girl who wins nothing but trophies. I've always wanted to win over and gain approval from my teammates, but honestly that's never going to happen. I don't feel the need to do that with Danny Hart, because he'd actually act like a person to me, that deep down he knows the truth about me. I don't know for sure if he does, I hope he doesn't, he may not want me in his life anymore, but it's also hard to know what I want out of life. Trying to keep up between being involved in school as well as trying to figure out myself. I'm afraid if people knew the truth that they would still act phony and fake, pretending to sympathise for me when I don't need that.

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