My mother was my best friend, the person I was closest to. Why did I lose her? This is my journey, my thoughts, my feelings.... everything I've experienced since that fateful fall day when my whole world was forever changed and my life was destroyed. I'm about to bare my soul... every thought, every feeling. I will reveal things that people may or may not know about my family. I'll be updating like a diary. I'm doing this to help myself heal and maybe I can help someone else in the same situation.