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Searching For My World

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Julian, a lonely boy who thinks and feels too much. Broken by the burden of life, which is slowly tearing him apart. Facing his problems while struggling to figure out his place in the world. His thoughts against his will, his heart against his mind. And then he meets Ethan, who will upend his entire life. Will he be able to find what he was longing for or will reality crush his world? He's starting high school full of hopes and fears, and some of them will be fulfilled. But he still doesn't know there's a looming moment at the end of his first year that will inevitably seal his fate. Perhaps he will get to know his world, but will it last? It's his life, and the love for Ethan will be essential at any cost.All Rights Reserved

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JUST FRIENDS (BoyXBoy) by SnowMarisvega

Vincent and Julian have been inseparable since grade 3, despite being total opposites. Julian's the charming, popular football star, while Vincent's the brainy, music-loving introvert. But their rock-solid friendship is put to the test when Vincent develops feelings for Decker, and risks everything to keep his secret safe. Meanwhile, Julian's girlfriend is the queen bee of mean girls at Arrison High, and she's got a score to settle with Vincent. As Vincent navigates the treacherous waters of high school, he finds solace in new friends Katherine and Tae, the school playboy and the school's devil. But things take a dark turn when Vincent becomes the target of relentless bullying. A single party sets off a chain reaction of events, and Vincent finds himself facing humiliation, intimidation, and cruelty at every turn. Amidst the turmoil, his feelings for Julian still linger, while Tae is steadfast in protecting the boy he calls "cherry blossom". But Vincent's got a lot on his plate. He's struggling to balance his dreams of becoming a musician with his mom's expectations of him becoming a doctor. He's fighting to survive high school, and to find his voice in a world that seems determined to silence him. Will Vincent find the courage to be himself, to pursue his passions, and to follow his heart? Can he overcome the obstacles in his path, and find true love with the one person who truly understands him? Can two broken souls, scarred by the tribulations of life, find solace and love in each other's embrace? How far will they go to shield themselves from the pain of their past, and will they ultimately find the courage to open their hearts and let love in? Dive into this emotional, romantic, and dramatic ride to find out!

Romeo And Julian (Part One) by BlewNeko

Romeo is the school's number one, and heartthrob of every girl around. He's handsome, muscular, kind, brave, and an altogether great guy. He's active in student council, sporting events, and fundraisers. Everyone either wants him or wants to be him. Except Julian. Julian just wants to work on his academics. He's small and frail, both emotionally and physically. Most people just ignore his existence, letting him go about his business with little problem. He doesn't get involved with anyone other than than some of his friends in the academic clubs he takes part in, and he definitely doesn't interact with jocks and popular kids. =Cover by @justanotherpalace= 10/06/18 ~ #89 in Romeo

FLEEING AND FEELING by 1000TalesbyHer

"Between friends, unspoken feelings can feel like a fragile thread pulled taut; one denies its existence while the other hides behind its delicate weave, both yearning for the courage to unravel what lies beneath." Ian and Julian, long-time best friends, find themselves in a complicated situation following a wildly inebriated, somewhat unconventional evening, which disrupts their lives. An awkward situation arises! To complicate matters, Julian poured out his emotions that night, only to later dismiss it as an error. Typical melodrama, wouldn't you say? However, Ian possesses an exceptional memory. While Julian hastily dismisses the incident, Ian's keen recollection paints a different picture. He senses Julian's insincerity and detects a discrepancy. Ian isn't one to evade unresolved issues, preferring to confront them head-on. As they deal with the fallout of their actions, conflicting perspectives, and clashes in temperament, emotions run high. The situation intensifies as they confront their feelings, leading to revelations about family secrets and youthful indiscretions. Layers upon layers of undisclosed information, intertwined with a sprinkle of adolescent recklessness and folly. Fleeing and Feeling is a captivating coming-of-age tale of love, secrets, and the often absurd journey of young adulthood, reminding us that sometimes even the messiest of situations lead to the most honest answers. @Mature.

Wherefore Art Thou Romeo? ✓ by swallowedhearts

[BXB] Romeo, exhausted by his apathetic relationships, is desperate to prove to himself that he can find love. Rodney, reckless and exciting, is unlike anyone he has ever met. Instantly, Romeo is captivated and thinks that the love he seeks lies in Rodney. But there is an ugliness to loving Rodney that Romeo didn't expect and, as their relationship becomes more intense, he realizes that it's harder to separate love and obsession than he once thought. As the line blurs and love is contaminated by destruction, Romeo has to decide if Rodney is the answer to his prayers or the road to his downfall. [ november. 2022 - october. 2023 ]

Between the Lines (BL) by danarux

Being talented and outstanding in your field doesn't guarantee success in relationships. Julian "Jay" Adams is a fine art student struggling with both creative and emotional blockages. Caught in a draining relationship, he finds an unexpected source of support in his roommate Mason Hayes and starts to realize that he might have more in common with him. As the boundaries between friendship and something more begin to blur, things seem to simplify... or so Jay thinks. Mason receives news that could either tear them apart or bring them closer than ever. Started on September 13, 2024 ✨ #1 in literary (15/09/2024)

This Rose Bleeds by UniPooDeux

Nathan's life: school, work, secrets, and survival. Ryder's life: soccer, friends, awesomeness, and his mom's annoying attempts to set him up. Nathan doesn't need any more trouble, but when he meets Ryder, trouble is all he gets. (BOYXBOY. NO LIKEY MY NATEY? GET DA FLUCK OFF MY STORY! also trauma warning, pls stay safe if you are triggered my mature scenes/traumatic experiences) HEY O BUDDY O PALS! If this story looks familiar, it's because you might have read TRB on my old account UnicornPoo. I lost the account T__T so I'll be reposting here! And on the bright side, I'll be doing some revision since this was written back in 2012-2017 and it could use a facelift. THANK YOU THANK YOU! ENJOY!

OPEN [boyxboy] ✓ by flawed-

BOOK ONE Discovering your sexuality in high-school is one of the most challenging things a teenage boy can face. Being closet gay for months, finally coming out, being greeted with a punch in the face and being shunned is even worse. For Julian Douglas, life can't get anymore difficult especially in the face of high school, a restrictive religious mother, and a gorgeous man with a huge following who jumped into his life at the most inopportune time. ::: He felt like serenity. He made me feel safe and I couldn't help but slow my heartbeat down to match his and at once, I felt the tempo of his heart thumping against my back, his breaths on my neck, goosebumps raising. I could feel it when his body finally went slack, when he'd fallen asleep and soft snores emitted. And I thought I was getting better at this breaking down thing... I honestly did but when I was alone, I seemed to fall apart. Endless serenades of how worthless I'd been and how destructive I was; I was a disappointment to literally everyone and I hated it. My breathing became shallow as I cried for the second time that day, finally feeling content being immersed in guilt. A shudder wracked through my body, tears escaping and Paul pulled me closer as he woke silently. Mumbling soft nothings against my skin and kissing it to slow my breathing, he tried to lull me to sleep, "It's okay, you're okay." Refusing to speak -my voice failing me- his arm came up to wrap around my shoulder and I held him there, placing a small kiss to his tattooed skin in a broken sign of gratitude, I must've run out of tears. And I felt at ease.

Exploding Hearts (bxb) | ✔ by dreammcatcher

Oliver is lost in a world that he loved. A desire to paint to his hearts content, any form of distraction from his recent heartbreak. Attempting to rebuild his life without the person he loves, adapting to bleak reality. He was always known for being shy and quiet, until he met Max, who turned his life upside down. Max was vibrant and loud, cheeky and confident. Everything Oliver was not. But Max showed him things in life that brought him out of his comfort zone, experiencing the extremes of life with each other. Until one day Max left without a saying a word, leaving Oliver's world to crumble. Oliver now lives a life with a blank space in his heart. Attempting to move on and accept that Max is never coming home. But Oliver was never expecting to see Max in a gay bar, whilst on a date with someone else one year later. The drama unfolds and hearts explode.

stuck (together) by urcatwrites

Ethan went to boarding school every year, he didn't love it but it was better than staying home. Every year it was the same, maybe some new classes but he kept the same routine, same friends, and same self-loathing behavior. Things change when Julian starts extending St. Eve's Academy. Everything about him draws Ethan in, his dark hair and sickly pale skin, his quiet demeanor, and his dark eyes that always stared at him. Ethan goes out of his way to talk to him but Julian prefers to keep to himself. A tale as old as time, two kids stuck together at some school, two kids with bad families, and two kids who need each other but have to work past their own issues to finally be happy. --------- blurb - "I was going to ask if you wanted to go for a smoke, but your hair is all wet," Julian said taking in the droplets of water that were left on Ethan's neck, some trailed down his throat, teasing Julian. "So?" "So... You'll get sick." "Now you care if I get sick?" Ethan gave him an amused face, a smile tugging at his lips. "No," Julian sighed composing himself, "Do you want to smoke or not?" Julian said with an edge to his voice. "Sure," Ethan raised his eyebrows and followed Julian outside. -------------- started: 12/3/22 ended: 7/19/23 search "stuck (together)" for a playlist on spotify :) also heads up with story isn't very plot heavy more just watching their relationship together and it develop. also the is not at all an accurate display of addiction #smokingisnotcooldontdoit but seriously don't yell at me bc of how unrealistic their smoking habits are it's just for funnies :P also sexual content lmao read at your own discretion :D rankings - #2 in bxblove - #1 in gayfiction - #1 in badfamily -#2 in gay -#1 in darkacademia -#1 in gayness

His World. by euphoricfeels

Growing up, Julian Rivera always knew he was different. Instead of wanting toy cars, he wanted Barbie dolls. Instead of liking girls, he liked boys. And now a teenager in highschool, instead of wanting to wear male attire, he'd rather wear crop tops and booty shorts. Most of his childhood he has been bullied and made fun of because of the way he is but either way, he ignores the hate and continues doing whatever he wants. Sophomore year had just arrived and Julian couldn't be any less excited to go back to the constant tormenting and hazing. Although having his close brother, Jamie and his best friend, Jaliea at his side, high school's still a tough place. Constantly getting played by boys, Julian's over even trying for love until one certain boy named Andre Santos catches his eye. Being the most hated in school and Andre being on the football, track, and basketball team and at that, also being a Junior, it seems nothing but a far fetched dream but when Andre starts showing slight interest back, Julian is confused if he's being genuine or not. With down low ex boyfriends, envious sibling girlfriends, and other new conflicts constantly popping up in Julian's world, how will he ever make it through? Especially when his deepest secret of all is spread rumor across the school and he's faced with the choice to chose between 3 different boys.

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JUST FRIENDS (BoyXBoy) cover

Romeo And Julian (Part One) cover

FLEEING AND FEELING cover

Wherefore Art Thou Romeo? ✓ cover

Between the Lines (BL) cover

This Rose Bleeds cover

OPEN [boyxboy] ✓ cover

Exploding Hearts (bxb) | ✔ cover

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JUST FRIENDS (BoyXBoy)

Vincent and Julian have been inseparable since grade 3, despite being total opposites. Julian's the charming, popular football star, while Vincent's the brainy, music-loving introvert. But their rock-solid friendship is put to the test when Vincent develops feelings for Decker, and risks everything to keep his secret safe. Meanwhile, Julian's girlfriend is the queen bee of mean girls at Arrison High, and she's got a score to settle with Vincent. As Vincent navigates the treacherous waters of high school, he finds solace in new friends Katherine and Tae, the school playboy and the school's devil. But things take a dark turn when Vincent becomes the target of relentless bullying. A single party sets off a chain reaction of events, and Vincent finds himself facing humiliation, intimidation, and cruelty at every turn. Amidst the turmoil, his feelings for Julian still linger, while Tae is steadfast in protecting the boy he calls "cherry blossom". But Vincent's got a lot on his plate. He's struggling to balance his dreams of becoming a musician with his mom's expectations of him becoming a doctor. He's fighting to survive high school, and to find his voice in a world that seems determined to silence him. Will Vincent find the courage to be himself, to pursue his passions, and to follow his heart? Can he overcome the obstacles in his path, and find true love with the one person who truly understands him? Can two broken souls, scarred by the tribulations of life, find solace and love in each other's embrace? How far will they go to shield themselves from the pain of their past, and will they ultimately find the courage to open their hearts and let love in? Dive into this emotional, romantic, and dramatic ride to find out!