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Searching For My World

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Julian, a lonely boy who thinks and feels too much. Broken by the burden of life, which is slowly tearing him apart. Facing his problems while struggling to figure out his place in the world. His thoughts against his will, his heart against his mind. And then he meets Ethan, who will upend his entire life. Will he be able to find what he was longing for or will reality crush his world? He's starting high school full of hopes and fears, and some of them will be fulfilled. But he still doesn't know there's a looming moment at the end of his first year that will inevitably seal his fate. Perhaps he will get to know his world, but will it last? It's his life, and the love for Ethan will be essential at any cost.All Rights Reserved

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Killing Samuel and Moving On by cosmic_lattes

|𝟑𝐱 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐃| In this touching coming of age drama, 𝐒𝐀𝐌𝐔𝐄𝐋 goes through life in search of answers that no one can supply him with. When he discovers the source of his pain and the seemingly obvious remedy, he decides to end his own life so that 𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀 has the chance to be who she truly is. It isn't as bad as it sounds. But prepare to get your heart ripped out anyway. 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐬: 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐟𝐢𝐜, 𝐥𝐠𝐛𝐭𝐪+, 𝐝𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐭 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐝: 𝟏𝟎/𝟐𝟐/𝟐𝟎 𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐝: 𝟏𝟐/𝟎𝟔/𝟐𝟎 𝐑𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝟏𝟒+ 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐠𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐀, 𝐄𝐃, 𝐬𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞, & 𝐥𝐠𝐛𝐭𝐪+ 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐂𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫: @𝐜𝐨𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐜_𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐬

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head over heels by bubbbers

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BOOK TWO Julian Douglas: sophomore in college, star athlete, a guy who seems to have his life together, at least by everyone else's' standards. There's something missing though, a significant other if you must. Being single in college is every man's dream but being single after you're sure you've already met the love of your life... That's enough to drive a man crazy. Still, Paul Jones, an artist with over six million subscribers on YouTube, showcases in art galleries across the country, and a smile that could make angels envious... He's hard to let go of. : : : "I'm your boyfriend, Jules." He looked so sad then, so completely vulnerable and it was my fault. It was all my fault and I didn't notice until it was too late. "Do you forget that?" Maybe I did. Maybe I thought ignoring him would stop these feelings from surfacing, that missing him wouldn't take over if I never thought of him. And Paul had sighed, his hands coming up to wipe the few tears that hadn't fallen. His cheeks were flushed, he'd done enough crying for the day, and his hair was all over the place from his frustrated tugging. We'd both looked rough but seeing him just as a mess as I was... it made my heart hurt. So did his next words and I knew he'd already given up. "Do you wanna be with me or do you just not wanna be alone?" [TRIGGER WARNING: MAIN CHARACTER IS DEPRESSED. This story deals with mental illness and alcoholism.]

JUST FRIENDS (BoyXBoy) by SnowMarisvega

Vincent and Julian have been inseparable since grade 3, despite being total opposites. Julian's the charming, popular football star, while Vincent's the brainy, music-loving introvert. But their rock-solid friendship is put to the test when Vincent develops feelings for Decker, and risks everything to keep his secret safe. Meanwhile, Julian's girlfriend is the queen bee of mean girls at Arrison High, and she's got a score to settle with Vincent. As Vincent navigates the treacherous waters of high school, he finds solace in new friends Katherine and Tae, the school playboy and the school's devil. But things take a dark turn when Vincent becomes the target of relentless bullying. A single party sets off a chain reaction of events, and Vincent finds himself facing humiliation, intimidation, and cruelty at every turn. Amidst the turmoil, his feelings for Julian still linger, while Tae is steadfast in protecting the boy he calls "cherry blossom". But Vincent's got a lot on his plate. He's struggling to balance his dreams of becoming a musician with his mom's expectations of him becoming a doctor. He's fighting to survive high school, and to find his voice in a world that seems determined to silence him. Will Vincent find the courage to be himself, to pursue his passions, and to follow his heart? Can he overcome the obstacles in his path, and find true love with the one person who truly understands him? Can two broken souls, scarred by the tribulations of life, find solace and love in each other's embrace? How far will they go to shield themselves from the pain of their past, and will they ultimately find the courage to open their hearts and let love in? Dive into this emotional, romantic, and dramatic ride to find out!

I'M SORRY by Marthenaseneris

his first day at new school didn't go as well as mark planned. He's had many problem in the past, due to his sexuality. He thought they would accept him the way he is, but he thought wrong. Now this is his opportunity to start over, and don't make the same mistake again. mark can't help but fell attracted towards him even if Ethan is a jerk to him. With the time Mark question himself if he still likes him, or hates him, or both But why Ethan acting like this? is there something he's hiding? or is simply that much of a jerk? What will happen to Mark if he doesn't stop bothering him?

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The Arson to my Aristocracy by shokonen

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