ADOPTED...BY ONE DIRECTION???

I'm 13 years old in an orphanage where racial slurs are thrown at me on the daily because I'm black. I've been in Holly James Orphanage For Girls since I was four because my mom didn't want to be responsible for a bratty child like me. I have been adopted over twenty times each time sent back because I wasn't "good enough" as I was told. Luckily I was never physically harassed in any way but i was mentally. I was called fat, worthless, rude, nobody, and other names I do not wish to repeat.The family that I spent the most amount of time with was the ones I loved most but they sent me back because they finally were able to have their own kid and I insisted not wanted to make it harder on them.I'm almost certain I will be in this orphanage until I'm eighteen.