Forgive Me, Aleah
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She is a girl a year younger than me; I know the exact date and time of her birth by heart.
She is a girl who I followed anywhere but also dragged around with the intention of showing her new things.
She is a girl who I tried my best to carry over the muddiest of puddles so that her new shoes wouldn't get dirty. A girl who I struggled to carry and would fall backwards into the same puddle but tried my best to keep her elevated so that the muddy water wouldn't touch her.
She is a girl who I call my best friend; yet I always find myself mentally yelling at myself each time I do say she is.
She is a girl who often cries and exchanges secrets with me.
She is a girl I cherish with every last bit of my soul and heart.
She is Aleah Deirdre: the only person I will have engraved so deeply into my soul that if I am ever given a second life, she would be the first person I search for.
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"You know... even if I'm just a chapter of your story, you're still the entire title of mine."
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"You can hurt me as much as you'd like because I can never hate you."
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"Forgive me, Elijah."
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(All trigger warnings will be graphic.)
TW(Trigger warnings): Domestic violence/abuse, heavy mental abuse, child abandonment, depression, suicide(s), death(s), grief, loss of a loved one, kidnapping/imprisonment, goes over the subject of abortion and miscarriages, eating disorders, body dysmorphia, cussing, guns/shootings, drugs(being used and made), addiction, prostitution, self-harm (very graphic), violent accidents, gaslighting, heavy manipulation, heavy detailed traumas, grooming, possessiveness, and obsessiveness
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