All You Will Never Know

I am a girl who always aspires to be an open book in a relationship with a guy. I used to believe in love and would do -did- anything for it. Now as I question everything I had faith in about love, life and myself, I take a journey to discover the world by trying to find myself and hope to get to the happiness. Because in every failure or heartbreak, there is a lesson as big as the hurtful feelings you got and you just have to dig in and learn those lessons from your tough experiences. Yeah, in a hard way.
So, about the "open book" thing; as much as I tried to be honest and outspoken about my feelings, there always have been some issues that I could never talk about because I did not have the courage. Now I take a step back with a deep breath, and start writing pretty much all the things i could not point out and be open about. All the things "he" did not know, all the things my family, friends, strangers on the street will never find out unless some of them somehow unveils this.