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(my biggest goal is to make you cry) 

14 year old Eleanor never would've thought that her big brother would commit suicide, leaving her and his (ex) boyfriend, Cyrus, in terrible sorrow. After months of recovering from a wound they never thought would ever cut them, Eleanor decides to finally go through what was once Liam's bedroom. At first, everything seemed completely normal for a depressed 22 year old guy, but then things started to get weird. She found objects, files, and notes that she feels would have to be kept a secret. Will she find out who her birth parents are? What will they do when they find out Liam is dead? Read to find out!

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One Million Branches [Vic Fuentes Book One] by fidjdhhd

Paige, a girl from a broken home, her sister killed herself a few years ago and since then she has been depressed and guilty. She does all sorts of self harm and is suicidal. Her parents blame her for her sister's death, they beat her, make fun of her, and make her feel terrible about everything she does. Paige's only friends left her when she became depressed, leaving her with one friend who eventually stabbed her in the back and told everyone, everything. To escape everything Paige goes to the park and climbs trees, one day she starts talking to a class mate named Vic and they become friends, they tell each other everything. Will there friendship lead to something more? Or will Paige be left heartbroken? (TRIGGER WARNING) Sequel: It was all for you, all for you and more

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The Lost Chance by Zennytnw

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Me Without You by kccdrw

Shock. Once the shock wore off, I was confused. Then angry. You made me so angry because I felt betrayed by your choice. Your choice to leave me, leave me all alone in this dark world. I felt so angry and betrayed by your choice to desert me when you were all I had. Then I accepted the fact that you were no longer here because that's just how it was and how it had to be. I had to learn to accept the fact that life was now me without you and that was a damn hard pill to swallow.

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His Sweet Lies by moonprince87

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One Million Branches [Vic Fuentes Book One]

Paige, a girl from a broken home, her sister killed herself a few years ago and since then she has been depressed and guilty. She does all sorts of self harm and is suicidal. Her parents blame her for her sister's death, they beat her, make fun of her, and make her feel terrible about everything she does. Paige's only friends left her when she became depressed, leaving her with one friend who eventually stabbed her in the back and told everyone, everything. To escape everything Paige goes to the park and climbs trees, one day she starts talking to a class mate named Vic and they become friends, they tell each other everything. Will there friendship lead to something more? Or will Paige be left heartbroken? (TRIGGER WARNING) Sequel: It was all for you, all for you and more