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14 year old Eleanor never would've thought that her big brother would commit suicide, leaving her and his (ex) boyfriend, Cyrus, in terrible sorrow. After months of recovering from a wound they never thought would ever cut them, Eleanor decides to finally go through what was once Liam's bedroom. At first, everything seemed completely normal for a depressed 22 year old guy, but then things started to get weird. She found objects, files, and notes that she feels would have to be kept a secret. Will she find out who her birth parents are? What will they do when they find out Liam is dead? Read to find out!

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