Anyone else but you || punznap

He hated it. He hated that he felt the urge to do it, even if it's rare, he hated that he hated the idea of being touched by someone else that his boyfriend couldn't help him, he hated the thought of something going in him even if it was his fingers and they felt great in the bliss of the moment, he rarely had bottom dysphoria but he still hated that he was rubbing at a clit, not a dick, he hated that he soaked through his underwear every time, he hated that his hand always pulled away wet and sticky, but most of all he hated the guilt he felt after the few moments of post euphoric orgasmic bliss and he absolutely loathes how sometimes he just wants his boy there with him and wishes punz was the one touching him instead. Sure he knows masturbation is normal and everybody gets the urges even asexual people hell he even knows asexuality is a spectrum and some ace people enjoy sex he even wants sex sometimes even though it's a very rare occurrence and he still dosnt know how to bring it up to his boyfriend, he's just repulsed by it most of the time and he hates that he has to get off in some shape or form.

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Sapnap is trans and an asexual is sex-repulsed most of the time but he still gets urges like every person but hates the guilt he feels after masturbation and hates the guilt he feels after wanting his boy to touch him but his boyfriend punz is there to comfort him and maybe help him get off.

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hi, it's felix im back to writing but here's a little trans ace sapnap oneshot that is mostly me just self projecting onto sapnap as another trans ace person.