What is wrong with you

It's weird when you realize you have it so much better than millions of people who go to bed starving and can't afford to support their children. You feel selfish and disgusted at yourself that you have so much yet aren't fulfilled, you need more. Life is filled with "I want" and everyone has said this at least once weather it be a tv sensation who wants love from their parents or someone like me who wants to know what's wrong with them. I feel selfish because as I am worrying about looking a certain way or trying to find out what's the next idiotic choice I make. It seems as though I'm causing pain to whoever i come across so why not end my existence maybe then i wouldn't be such a burden.

TW: suicidal thoughts, mental abuse, and other mentions of potentially triggering topics

sorry this is so bad I'm new at writing and posting it .

Constructive criticism please:))))

Lots of love- Eden<3