I don't love you
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MatureOngoing6m
Last published Wed, Jun 1, 2022
This book is based off of wonder egg priority. AKA I got the inspiration from one direct priority.
Slow updates
TW:SH,ED, Suicide, Death, Migraines,
Stress and abuse.
Why did you leave me is what I asked myself under the undeniable pressure I was facing. How does the human body bleed Is what I asked myself As the knife went over my skin. Why am I here I asked the year is 3030 You think we'd improve It only got worse as technology got better.Tallest building is 10000' of the air. And myself falling off of the tallest building in the world.
There's the technology to go to space Just to eat Fucking pizza. I sit with the the working class where I am treated like a slave to society. I managed that on top of school. To some people that doesn't seem impressive depending on the year you're reading this but to me it's everything.
Why am I not dead. Where am I.
This isn't my world.
Are you calling me The savior?
I'm Marilyn Gray and I don't know what the fuck is going on.
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