My (maybe) First Love

"I often ponder, every now and then, if you still have the have the gift I gave you a year ago. I also wonder if my letters to you mean as much as your letter mean to me, if you ever wrote back. I'm confused but understanding for some reason why you: don't respond to me, don't text me back, or don't talk to me. I hate that I'm still not over you, even though I thought it was just a crush. I want to erase from your mind that you found I liked you, the year of our 6th grade. But the funny thing is, I really don't regret anything that I did for you. I must have thought in my eleven year old self that you were just a crush. But now that I look back, maybe you were my first love."