Let Me In

"All of this could have been avoided if you would just open up to someone!" Matt yells making me narrow my eyes.

"Look, I know you think you're helping, but you are actually doing the precise opposite. I shut people out for a reason and you and the rest off them trying to get all close with just makes everything even worst than it has to be! I don't want you, I don't need you, I don't need anyone. Just leave me alone so you can spare what's left of your dignity." I yell grabbing my book-bag and checking that everything is still there.

But as I try to walk away he grabs my arm and turns me to him. "Who did this to you, Carmen? Who hurt you so much emotionally and mentally that you've completely shut down anyone that tries to help you? You never talk about how you feel, you push kind people away and you gladly invite negative people in, and you refuse to open up and let someone love you or care about you. Who the hell did that to you?"

I yank my arm from his grasp and walk toward the door, but at the last minute turn towards him and speak quickly and honestly. "This little thing called life did. Unlike you Jethro, I was forced to live it." With that I quickly open the door and walk out before the pinch in my throat and the burning behind my eyes make their promise of bringing tears.