MY TEACHER, MY FIRST LOVE

How can I move on when my past still haunts me? When everything seems stagnant until now?
Mahal ko sya...
Pero I have no news where she is right now.
I ruined everything. My life, my family, my friends, and even myself.
Bar became my home.
Alcohol turns to be my best buddy.
How am I supposed to fill the gap if the missing piece still lingers on me?
Nasaan kana ba kasi?
May pamilya kana ba?
If that's so...
Masaya ka ba sa kaniya?
Andaming tanong pero walang sagot.