Searching for Death
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"I saw you sitting here, you the most beautiful little thing I've ever seen, depressed and alone. I looked into your eyes and I saw that you were going through some messed up shit and it broke me. I want to get to know you. I want to put light back in your blue eyes"
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Anastasia Peterson has certainly been through it all. She's experienced the loss of her mother and the insanity of her father. She's anorexic, depressed and suicidal. Anastasia is planning to die, and she most certainly wants to follow through on he plan. But Anastasia catches Parker Fields' eye. He's a tall, handsome jock. Parker plans to save her from the most dangerous thing in her life- herself. And he certainly wants to follow through on that plan.
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