I Didn't Even Realize
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Last published Wed, Jan 5, 2022
Hi guyysss
So this book is about a girl who gets bullied on a young age.
Now you might ask yourself "why did the author choose the title "I didn't even realize", right?
So the main reason is because all that time she never thought poeple could be that cruel, she didn't realize that the people around her were thinking about her like that.
She didn't know that the society she was in was so obsessed with "good looks, nice appearance, an ideal weight,....."
I mean, her weight was bothering her too, everynight she was crying herself to sleep, and every morning she was struggling with which clothes she was going to wear.
Cause nothing, there was absolutely nothing that could motivate her, not even nice clothes that actually fit her, not a family that said: you're beautiful, keep going!"
Not a single soul that told her "You don't have to please others! Be yourself!
No, that weight broke her confidence, she couldn't be herself, she had to always please others, she always had to be that person she never wanted to be......
Also...the girl didn't like to show any emotions, tears always had to be covered, she couldn't show them to anyone..
Cause what if someone used it against her? "Ahahaha, look now she's crying!"
No, she couldn't let that happen'
School, Depression, Anxiety....her dreams became a nightmare....
Sorry about any mistakes :))
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